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Stepping Stone 1
As I take this first step...I am very hesitant...distant...anxious.
So I write...not knowing what to write, but I am taking the first step after weeks of putting it off.
How can I describe what I feel...who I am now...where i am now?
My very own PRESENCE is lacking in my present.
I am consumed with regrets of my past, doubtful about my future, and weary of my present circumstances. I feel that I am living to die...not in the biblical sense but I feel so deeply to my bones that I am wasting away each day, each hour, each waking and sleeping moment.
Yet I realize ironically as I write this post that I still must have placed my hope in Him who loves me and gave Himself for me. I was initially worried about opening all the old and fresh wounds I tried so hard to conceal by taking this first stepping stone. I was dreadfully afraid of the Darkness that I wish to never go back to or reacquaint again with. But I no longer fear the Darkness as I feel a sense of peace that I so rarely feel in this life...and it's the peace that only He can give.
Although I do not know everyone here on oasis, I pray that each of you (including myself) will find peace in your hearts and rediscover the skip in your walk with God through His joy and that you will find rest each day in His loving arms so we can all finish this race together in the end, Amen.
So I write...not knowing what to write, but I am taking the first step after weeks of putting it off.
How can I describe what I feel...who I am now...where i am now?
My very own PRESENCE is lacking in my present.
I am consumed with regrets of my past, doubtful about my future, and weary of my present circumstances. I feel that I am living to die...not in the biblical sense but I feel so deeply to my bones that I am wasting away each day, each hour, each waking and sleeping moment.
Yet I realize ironically as I write this post that I still must have placed my hope in Him who loves me and gave Himself for me. I was initially worried about opening all the old and fresh wounds I tried so hard to conceal by taking this first stepping stone. I was dreadfully afraid of the Darkness that I wish to never go back to or reacquaint again with. But I no longer fear the Darkness as I feel a sense of peace that I so rarely feel in this life...and it's the peace that only He can give.
Although I do not know everyone here on oasis, I pray that each of you (including myself) will find peace in your hearts and rediscover the skip in your walk with God through His joy and that you will find rest each day in His loving arms so we can all finish this race together in the end, Amen.
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Jane Lee - Posts: 3
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Re: Stepping Stone 1
Hello Jane Lee
God bless you this day, and welcome to Christianity Oasis.
I'm glad you are reading the 14 Day Path / CCCC Study. It is such a blessing. Yeah!!!
Yes, that skip...that blessed skip in our step that comes with walking with The Lord...wooooohooooo time to frolic with The Lord.
I look forward to hearing how the truths in each step bless you.
God bless and keep you.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack
God bless you this day, and welcome to Christianity Oasis.
I'm glad you are reading the 14 Day Path / CCCC Study. It is such a blessing. Yeah!!!
Yes, that skip...that blessed skip in our step that comes with walking with The Lord...wooooohooooo time to frolic with The Lord.
I look forward to hearing how the truths in each step bless you.
God bless and keep you.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack
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Mackenaw - Posts: 2414
- Location: NY
- Marital Status: Married
Re: Stepping Stone 1
Welcome to Oasis Jane Lee I'm glad you are here. Was blessed by your sharing.
Sorrow looks back, Worry looks around, But faith looks up! Live simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly and trust in our Creator who loves us.
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Dora - Posts: 3759
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Re: Stepping Stone 1
Welcome, jane!! so glad you are here as well!
You will also be in my prayers and may God give you courage, strength, wisdom& peace as He guides you in your journey!
You will also be in my prayers and may God give you courage, strength, wisdom& peace as He guides you in your journey!
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lyl1114 - Posts: 191
- Location: los angeles
- Marital Status: Married
Re: Stepping Stone 1
Hello , and welcome aboard
Although my past was VERY dark , and I too , did not wish to look back (more like dared to look back) , and tried to pretend that it was not there , but , as we both know so well , all the efforts to "conceal" did not work , right ?
Here's what I found out . The dark of my past , no matter how much I tried to ignore , was always overshadowing my present "light" , to the point where I got to the conclusion , that what's the use , my past is dark , well , so is my present !
The trick ? .... instead of letting my past overshadow my present , take whatever Light I have left today , and SHINE it on my darkness ... expose it , then , to my surprise , there was no more "dark" !
We cannot "turn on or off" the dark . but we CAN turn the Light on , and the dark will disappear all by itself .
Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord
vahn
Although my past was VERY dark , and I too , did not wish to look back (more like dared to look back) , and tried to pretend that it was not there , but , as we both know so well , all the efforts to "conceal" did not work , right ?
Here's what I found out . The dark of my past , no matter how much I tried to ignore , was always overshadowing my present "light" , to the point where I got to the conclusion , that what's the use , my past is dark , well , so is my present !
The trick ? .... instead of letting my past overshadow my present , take whatever Light I have left today , and SHINE it on my darkness ... expose it , then , to my surprise , there was no more "dark" !
We cannot "turn on or off" the dark . but we CAN turn the Light on , and the dark will disappear all by itself .
Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord
vahn
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vahn - Posts: 809
- Location: Earth (STILL !!)
Re: Stepping Stone 1
Amen Jane..it is an easy thing for another believer to see in your words the love you have for the Lord dispite trials troubles and tribulations that so easily beset us..Much encouragment to you...God is so gracious...
here is something i hope touches you as it has me..God bless you and your family....
“I cannot understand the reason why I am saved, except upon the ground that God would have it so. I cannot, if I look ever so earnestly, discover any kind of reason in myself why I should be a partaker of Divine grace.
If I am not at this moment without Christ, it is only because Christ Jesus would have His will with me, and that will was that I should be with Him where He is, and should share His glory.
I can put the crown nowhere but upon the head of Him whose mighty grace has saved me from going down into the pit.
Looking back on my past life, I can see that the dawning of it all was of God; of God effectively. I took no torch with which to light the sun, but the sun enlightened me.
I did not commence my spiritual life-no, I rather kicked, and struggled against the things of the Spirit: when He drew me, for a time I did not run after Him: there was a natural hatred in my soul of everything holy and good.
Wooings were lost upon me-warnings were cast to the wind- thunders were despised; and as for the whispers of His love, they were rejected as being less than nothing and vanity.
But, sure I am, I can say now, speaking on behalf of myself, "He only is my salvation." It was He who turned my heart, and brought me down on my knees before Him.”
“Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners. It is a very surprising thing--a thing to be marveled at most of all by those who enjoy it. I know that it is to me even to this day the greatest wonder that I ever heard of, that God should ever justify me.
I feel myself to be a lump of unworthiness, a mass of corruption, and a heap of sin, apart from His almighty love.
I know by a full assurance that I am justified by faith which is in Christ Jesus, and treated as if I had been perfectly just, and made an heir of God and a joint heir with Christ; and yet by nature I must take my place among the most sinful.
I, who am altogether undeserving, am treated as if I had been deserving. I am loved with as much love as if I had always been godly, whereas aforetime I was ungodly.
Who can help being astonished at this? Gratitude for such favor stands dressed in robes of wonder.”
here is something i hope touches you as it has me..God bless you and your family....
“I cannot understand the reason why I am saved, except upon the ground that God would have it so. I cannot, if I look ever so earnestly, discover any kind of reason in myself why I should be a partaker of Divine grace.
If I am not at this moment without Christ, it is only because Christ Jesus would have His will with me, and that will was that I should be with Him where He is, and should share His glory.
I can put the crown nowhere but upon the head of Him whose mighty grace has saved me from going down into the pit.
Looking back on my past life, I can see that the dawning of it all was of God; of God effectively. I took no torch with which to light the sun, but the sun enlightened me.
I did not commence my spiritual life-no, I rather kicked, and struggled against the things of the Spirit: when He drew me, for a time I did not run after Him: there was a natural hatred in my soul of everything holy and good.
Wooings were lost upon me-warnings were cast to the wind- thunders were despised; and as for the whispers of His love, they were rejected as being less than nothing and vanity.
But, sure I am, I can say now, speaking on behalf of myself, "He only is my salvation." It was He who turned my heart, and brought me down on my knees before Him.”
“Jesus Christ came into the world to save sinners. It is a very surprising thing--a thing to be marveled at most of all by those who enjoy it. I know that it is to me even to this day the greatest wonder that I ever heard of, that God should ever justify me.
I feel myself to be a lump of unworthiness, a mass of corruption, and a heap of sin, apart from His almighty love.
I know by a full assurance that I am justified by faith which is in Christ Jesus, and treated as if I had been perfectly just, and made an heir of God and a joint heir with Christ; and yet by nature I must take my place among the most sinful.
I, who am altogether undeserving, am treated as if I had been deserving. I am loved with as much love as if I had always been godly, whereas aforetime I was ungodly.
Who can help being astonished at this? Gratitude for such favor stands dressed in robes of wonder.”
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