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[Ruthk34]

Ok since my first day starting this study I havn't writen in my journal because I seemed to be at a loss as to what to write but I am back at it. Today I read step 6 which is about figuring out if I am ordained or not. Hmmm, this is a tough one for me. I have known for a while that I was ment to be a caregiver because I can't help myself when it comes to looking out for others. I have been doing it for as long as I can remember. Even as a kid I was always trying to help someone. There was no avoiding it because it was ingrained in me from the get go. I even have to restrain myself sometimes from going to far. I know I can't fix everything for everybody I have to step back sometimes because it is really up to them to handle it so they can grow. Many times people would take advantage of me as well and I let them but that is something I have worked on to change and I am a bit more reserved. I try to advise instead of doing for them all the time depending on the need. One can not learn unless they try to do for themselves or choose to do anything period. I know taking care of others pleases God But am I ordained by God? I'm not sure. So far in my life there is only one person I know of that I taught how to be saved and to know where they would go when they die. I remember that he already believed in God, his mother was catholic and he had a friend who was a jahova witness but he still didn't know how to be saved. I was suprised to find that he didn't know and was so happy that I was able to tell him how to be saved since I knew that his life was likely coming to an end in the near future as he had cancer of the brain. I will never forget seeing the tears forming in his eyes as he understood and finally knew for certain that he would go to heaven. I never saw him again since that day and I thank God that I had the oppertunity to share the truth with him. I had stumbled a bit in my testimony to him because of my lack of knowledge of the right verses to refer to and such but with the Lords help I was able to lead him to God even in my more ignorent time. God really does speak through us when it is needed (even when we don't realise it at the time).