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[Kimmyyy<3]

Hello All!

Here I am today! The second day! I waited and it was worth it! I found myself searching within myself for all lies Ive been told over the course of my lifetime! There are so many but I guess if I list them and put them out in the open, no matter how embarassing it is it will bring healing.

I am ugly
I look like a man
I not good enough
I will never be enough
I will never amount to anything
I am lazy
I am no good
I am crazy
Im not worth anything
I will never change
I cant do anything right
I cant (in general)
I am slow/dumb
I am insignificant
No one cares about/likes me
No one cares about what I have to say
No one wants to hear about me
People always hurt me
People are mean
People are always out to get me
People only have their best interest in mind
No one will ever love me
I will never fit in
If I dont fix it, no one else will

I think those are all of them, I hope they are. Going back and reading through kind of hurts because I didn't realize these were tricks of the enemy. I see some of these lies manifesting in my health. I hope that through this spiritual healing I can also obtain a physical healing too! This is probably the hardest thing I have ever done, I appreciate anyone who reads this and is not inclined to judge me. WHen I was a kid, whenever I ever told my mom about how I was feeling about something she would always make me feel bad in one way or another for what I said, even though they were my genuine feelings. Im not used to being able to share my feelings without being judged or criticized for sharing.

I must say this has caused me to analyze my thought process alot more, and to realize that some of my thoughts are not really even mine. The things I have been thinking for all of my life are not even my thoughts! I dont know, I just pray it isnt too late to find the real me, buried in all this doubt, confusion, and low self-esteem...

[Dora]

Wow what a very painful list of lies you've had to carry. I am so thankful they are coming out into the light where you can find the truth. And no it's not to late to find the real you. It's the one deep inside that God longs for. The one He created out of love. The one He'll adores. The one He runs to. The one who cries the tears God finds so precious He keeps in a bottle. He loves you so much even your tears are precious enough to keep. It is my prayer that you continue to replace these horrible lies that the enemy fed you with the truth of Gods deep love and acceptance of you. I'm sorry your mother made you feel bad for having emotions. Those are emotions God gave you. He accepts them. I'm certain He loves to hear you share your emotions with Him. May you feel His warm embrace sweet child of God.