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Day 3
Hello new friends. Grace. Something that confuses me about grace is that some people seem to get it and some people don't. I have obviously sinned since i have been saved, as we all have, and God has given me a ton of grace. He has not exposed me or given up on me but has given me grace. It seems to me as if my husband was not given any grace. I am sure this is not true because God's nature is to give grace. But my husband seems to be enduring a very very harsh punishment. He probably does deserve some of it but so did I and I didn't experience it. This is what confuses me about grace and actually makes me feel bad.
Sometimes when I think about my husbands situation I feel bad that I am not experiencing punishment and he is. I have sinned too but I am here in our home and people are being nice to me. It is actually something that hurts me. I am sure this is some sick twisted thing the enemy is doing to me but I am just being honest. This is what goes on in my brain.
I seem to be having waves of grief. Today I am on that wave. I miss him SO MUCH! This whole thing is just so unfair. How am I supposed to even stay married to him when we will be apart for a whole year? It has been nice to make decisions again and not have someone have so much control over my life. It has been nice to not have to worry and stress every day if I am going to do something wrong and start something. But that is not all he was. He was also someone who laid his wants and needs for me several times in different ways. He was also my best friend. Now he is gone. I am sad today.
Sometimes when I think about my husbands situation I feel bad that I am not experiencing punishment and he is. I have sinned too but I am here in our home and people are being nice to me. It is actually something that hurts me. I am sure this is some sick twisted thing the enemy is doing to me but I am just being honest. This is what goes on in my brain.
I seem to be having waves of grief. Today I am on that wave. I miss him SO MUCH! This whole thing is just so unfair. How am I supposed to even stay married to him when we will be apart for a whole year? It has been nice to make decisions again and not have someone have so much control over my life. It has been nice to not have to worry and stress every day if I am going to do something wrong and start something. But that is not all he was. He was also someone who laid his wants and needs for me several times in different ways. He was also my best friend. Now he is gone. I am sad today.
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notjustanumber - Posts: 30
- Location: United States
- Marital Status: Married
Re: Day 3
i'm sorry, a year IS a long time. It WILL come to an end though and I pray that God brings you both closer together than you were even before.
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deborahwarrior4god - Posts: 30
- Location: west coast
- Marital Status: Married
Re: Day 3
Hello Notjustanumber (((hugs)))
God bless you this day.
It is no surprise that Satan is now messing with your thoughts and trying to guilt you for doing what needed to be done -- it is what he does.
James 4:7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
I know you have so many concerns right now, and I do understand. But, God is working. Keep your faith strong in Him.
Your husband has a great call of God on his life. The enemy, Satan, is after all Christians, and he is especially after those that carry God's message -- those that speak God's Word to the masses. Your husband cannot keep his lips from speaking God's Word, so the enemy will do everything within his power to stop your husband.
Genesis 3:1 Now the serpent was more subtil than any beast of the field which the Lord God had made...
Satan is crafty, and subtil and he is not just your average prankster -- he steals, kills and destroys.
James 3:1 My brethren, be not many masters, knowing that we shall receive the greater condemnation.
This scripture is not only a "heads up" to those of us that carry His message, but also a message to those that only play with God's Word. (check out Acts 19:13-17)
Again, your husband knows and loves God's Word, and no, your husband was not just playing around with The Word; therefore, it is no surprise to him that satan was and is after him. However, satan disabled him, but, only for a time. Knowing God the way I do, I would not be surprised if God uses him to speak His Word to many in Rehab. God is so very Good!!! \o/ \o/ \o/
Trust God, He knows what He is doing. God loves your husband, and your husband is sealed unto God.
Take this time to further grow in God, yourself. Jesus loves and adores you, and your husband, and your daughter.
My prayers continue to rise to our Lord in the name of Jesus, on your behalf and on behalf of your husband and your daughter. May God's blessed and perfect will be done.
God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack
God bless you this day.
It is no surprise that Satan is now messing with your thoughts and trying to guilt you for doing what needed to be done -- it is what he does.
James 4:7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
I know you have so many concerns right now, and I do understand. But, God is working. Keep your faith strong in Him.
Your husband has a great call of God on his life. The enemy, Satan, is after all Christians, and he is especially after those that carry God's message -- those that speak God's Word to the masses. Your husband cannot keep his lips from speaking God's Word, so the enemy will do everything within his power to stop your husband.
Genesis 3:1 Now the serpent was more subtil than any beast of the field which the Lord God had made...
Satan is crafty, and subtil and he is not just your average prankster -- he steals, kills and destroys.
James 3:1 My brethren, be not many masters, knowing that we shall receive the greater condemnation.
This scripture is not only a "heads up" to those of us that carry His message, but also a message to those that only play with God's Word. (check out Acts 19:13-17)
Again, your husband knows and loves God's Word, and no, your husband was not just playing around with The Word; therefore, it is no surprise to him that satan was and is after him. However, satan disabled him, but, only for a time. Knowing God the way I do, I would not be surprised if God uses him to speak His Word to many in Rehab. God is so very Good!!! \o/ \o/ \o/
Trust God, He knows what He is doing. God loves your husband, and your husband is sealed unto God.
Take this time to further grow in God, yourself. Jesus loves and adores you, and your husband, and your daughter.
My prayers continue to rise to our Lord in the name of Jesus, on your behalf and on behalf of your husband and your daughter. May God's blessed and perfect will be done.
God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack
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Mackenaw - Posts: 2414
- Location: NY
- Marital Status: Married
Re: Day 3
Awe thank you! All of that is true. Thank you for praying for my family as well
Hugs,
Laurie
Hugs,
Laurie
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notjustanumber - Posts: 30
- Location: United States
- Marital Status: Married
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