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[xxJILLxx]

It has been a refreshing vacation I have enjoyed my simple mornings of just "being". 5 more days of this and back to homeschooling. Lord knows i needed the break. Now to prepare myself to not be so selfdefeated and take it as it comes when we resume.

I am so glad fractions are over . Decimal points seems to be much easier to teach, at least for me

I miss my kids, they are in Ohio with the rest of my family. Lord watch over them . It has been strange to not celebrate Christmas with my family this year ( I had to work). I made the best of it though. So all is good, next year i suppose or next holiday , hopefully.

I must say that also during this time off in the am's , it has given me not so much needed time in digging up graves, not of loved ones though, i know they rest in peace ... but of other graves such as past not so good employers and expercienes. I realised i still need to practice forgiveness and let go in those areas. I found out that the manager had gotten into some kind of trouble with the law, and im ashamed to say i was somewhat glad it caught up to him . Still areas i need to work through as a follower of Christ. I should never be happy for another's pain, no matter how much pain they put me through... not Godly. But all learning bumps in this walk with Christ. Shakin off the dust and moving forward. Forgive quickly, lest it be a stumbling block later in the road.

things that make u go hmmmmm...

♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

New Years resolution..

I have decided that IF i was going to have ANY New Years resolution this year, the only one for me is to get closer to God.
I know that when I do so, everything else will fall into place.


God bless
♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

Life... isnt it funny? I sit back and think about all the different paths and forks in the roads that i have encountered in my life. The negativity of my mind always brings up the bad ones, the "bad" paths (as i label them in my mind, but in all truth.. if it werent for those decisions I cant say i would hold the same appreciation for His grace) And of course along side of those "bad" paths are the "what if's" thoughts. Get away from me! I dont have time for such mind games.

These are thoughts that get me caught up, snags, useless and needless wanderings in my past are not going to get me anywhere except going backwards. Lord knows i dont want to be back where i was, so why so much of my time in my mind do i waste on such thoughts.

The Holy Spirit is good to remind me that when i choose His path, it outweighs all the negative ones. One ounce of His grace covers the WHOLE DEAL! His grace is BIG! Bigger than our comprehension. Not only does it cover my life but those before and after me and everyone in between. Now that is BIG! Immeasurable! No human word could even try to define it, for if they did it would limit their understanding of the vast size of HIS ounce of grace.

I accept His grace, A GIFT!, with a repentant heart on a daily basis.
Lord thank you for reminding me to keep looking forward.. THE ONLY PATH my eyes should be on is towards you.

♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

Not a good day at work .

Maybe it's time to move on from this particular case. I know it's not me, I know it's the disease.

[Mackenaw]

(((((((hugs))))))) Jilly

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

[xxJILLxx]

Thank u Mack! It is soooo hard to love the unloveable, but we must, and I do. Just really hard, but through Christ I can and will until He calls me away from this case.

God bless u sister

Hugs

[xxJILLxx]

An opening at work became available, i would still be working every weekend but instead of with the alzheimer patient i will be working on the floor with residents who need minimal help, no lifting required. I am thankful, Lord knows how i was tiring and getting a lil burnt out with the alzheimer patient. He is sooo good to know and meet all of our needs! ♥ PAPA♥ Needed a lil break. I pray they can find someone to fill my spot who will be able to cope with her. God's will be done SO with the promotion i got my evaluation and scored excellent and got a nice raise


God is soooo GOOOD!

He deserves all my Praise!

Abba! You are a great a mighty God who meets all of our needs. Although your love is Stronge and unmatchable i Love that is also as delicate as new born babe.

I love you Lord!
♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

Distance


Wanderings into wilderness, i take the path for escape.
Disconnection from noise, where can i go that it doesnt follow me?
Solutions seem so far fetched and unattainable.
Slumber is a comfort.

Negativity has made itself a nice abode
Every dark corner is its natural home

Aggravation comes and goes
Numbness and solitude seem to be my friends.

Cold and lifeless depression that keeps me standing in this space
Reaching then retreating back to this place.

Wandering aimlessly into distance
Death becoming a comfortable thought

Anxiety, what for?
No need to worry, who cares....

Striving, whats that?
Why strive? More aggravation, more depression, more distance, more negativity.

Anger within and thrown at myself.

Shame for thinking this way, for feeling this way... i should know better.

Wanderings into wilderness, i take the path for escape.
Disconnection from noise, where can i go that it doesnt follow me?
Solutions seem so far fetched and unattainable.
Slumber is a comfort.

[realtmg]

Hi there,
Not surprised to see a negative post as we can't be on the up and up EVERY day.
I have been studying about the Holy Spirit in which is a Divine Person that Jesus gave us to be at our side.
Better said than done?
Use Him as you would your best friend.
The outcome will reap joy and peace.
Fight the fight of faith sis.
Tomorrow will be a new day.
Go outside and see something God hath made.


Luv ya

Real

[vahn]

However reluctantly , when Moses finally acted upon what God was asking (asking ? .. more like telling) him to do , he found himself and his people freed from slavery . If I were to stop myself from reading right there , I would go , Halelujah !! Free at last !! .... but there's more to the picture isn't there ? ..... Though free from slavery , free to do whatever he and his people wished , he/they , STILL found themselves in the wilderness (lost... valley) , and all thw while everyone else were thinking "Is this it ?" , Moses was thinking " Wait a minute ! There MUST be more to this .... I know God didn't bring us all the way here to drop us now !!"

So , what did Moses do ? ... He CLIMBED the Mountain - as in ROSE ABOVE - his situation to meet God (Remember , when God told him first , God met Moses in the "valley") , now , by ascending the Mount to meet God , He told Moses what the real problem had been all along and gave Moses a set of Solutions .... OVERJOYED and in desparate need of passing on the Solution(s) with no one else "UP there" to share it with , Moses HAD to come back "down" to the valley ... and we know what happened next right ? ... The "valley" had not changed ! it was the same , so I can just imagine the sound of Moses's bubble bursting .... But that did not stop him did it ? What did he do ?

Moses commenced on destroying whatwas still going on in the valley FIRST in oeder for him to be able to give the people the Solution that would ultimately lead them to the Land God Promised ....

Often times we tend to forget the "destroying" part ... and what we do instead is , try to apply the Good on TOP of the "bad" and off we go on the roller-coaster .


Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord

[xxJILLxx]

Thnx guys.

Having a bout with depression, AGAIN

Love ya

[Christnundrconstruxn]

Hi Jill
I just wanted to say I know how your feeling, I hope it gets better and God wraps His loving arms around you