Christianity Oasis Forum

[living4Him]

I sit here.......just came out of one of the chat rooms....my mind.......just can't wrap around forgiveness.....thought I understood it....had accepted it..but now.....my mind wanders to places it need not go.....addictive places that I know get me into trouble. I look at images on the internet that my eyes should not see...think thoughts that I should not think.....have fantasies that bring only guilt and shame. I am here....on a christain site.....and still the darkness slips in and tries to take hold. Where can I go to escape these thoughts? I don't understand. Who is in control of my mind? my life? Why am I here?Why is this constant battle raging in my mind? Is there not an end? A winner? A loser? Death? something? Confusion.....not a state I like to be in......but where I find myself now.....it is dark....the battle rages....and I am tired.

[mlg]

living, are you doing the counseling steps? If so what step are you on?

My prayers are with you. May you know there is a better path...but you have to choose to walk that path with Jesus and to fight past the temptations leaning on His strength.

Take care and God Bless

[deetu]

Also know that the lies and confusion can come harder now because the enemy doesn't want to let you go... wants to keep you from knowing the truth and freedom.
Always reach for the opposite of the lies. Always reach for Jesus, calling out to him when you think it's too much and believe what is being offered to you.