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[Krystal]

" For a while you'll be in heaviness through many temptations, in which you

should greatly rejoice, that the trial of your faith, which is more precious

than gold, though it be tried with fire, will be found unto PRAISE AND HONOR

AND GLORY AT THE APPEARING OF JESUS CHRIST, WHOM HAVING NOT

SEEN, YOU LOVE; IN WHOM, THROUGH NOW YOU SEE HIM NOT, YET

BELIEVING, YOU REJOICE WITH JOY UNSPEAKABLE AND FULL OF GLORY,

receiving the end of your faith, which is the salvation of your soul."


This verse really spoke to me.
Realizing that it takes ALOT of faith to love and believing is something that you have not seen
especially in times of trials and tribulations

I was always afraid of going to heaven, and afraid of the second coming.
it freaked me out! I would start crying and/or have panic attacks whenever it would come up in conversation.
Fear of the unknown, I do not know what it is going to be like.
I know that the bible describes heaven as perfect, without sorrow and tears.
To me personally, that is so hard to imagine, and if i can't imagine it i don't want to experience it.
I didn't want to leave the people i love, i didnt want to miss out on getting married and having kids and them growing up and having kids.
I wanted to experience all of these things.
I was so afraid of the rapture happening before i would have the chance to experience those things.
I just wanted to grow old, have a good life, die and go to heaven.
key word OLD
I wanted it to be over when i had nothing else to live for.
my life was lived, i had to chance to do all of those things.
I know its said that in heaven none of that will matter.
but it does matter, right now it matters.
and i can't imagine it not mattering.
thats what scares me.
that and...i know i will love everyone in heaven. i will love my best friend and i will love someone across the world i have never met.
but will i love them the same? Will i have a special bond and love for my best friend who helped me through so much on earth, or will i not remember that because i wont remember the pain she helped me through. will she be just as close to me and loved as the person i never met?
I dont like that.

Those are things that scared me sooo much at the thought of dieing, or the rapture.
It still scares me a little bit
but i find myself more excited.
I just don't like not knowing.
If i knew everything about heaven, i wouldn't be so scared, but i don't.

[mlg]

Hey krystal, this is why it is so very important to grow in your relationship with Christ. Right now you have fears of the unknown blessings that God has in store for you...but love doesn't fear sis...and in order to not fear Heaven then you need to fall in love with Christ deeply. Then you will know that what He has planned is so much more than what life ever offered...and that you will be happy just as He has planned for you to be in Heaven.

Praying for you krystal...love conquers all.

luv ya

[xxJILLxx]

hello Krystal,

yes i remember having those same feelings.

I also remember a time when i said come quickly Lord Jesus, and now i say wait just a lil longer Lord, i still have work to do. But it is all up to Him and that is where i find my comfort. KNowing that no matter what He has my best interest at heart. Brings me peace that passes all understanding. So whether He comes now or later, He knows best and i trust Him. Once i begin to trust Him more the fear has to go.


I guess that my outlook on the rapture changes as my daily situation changes. Whne things are going good i want to stay, when things are bad i want to be bailed out!

When i sit back and think on that, it doesnt sit right with me personally. Because i think I am being selfish. Like a "dont call me God , I'll call you" type thing. Ya that would not be a good thing now would it? Speaking to myself here not you. Wondering how He would feel about all of that... I guess i wouldnt feel to well about it if i were to only accept my moms return when i am in trouble. Geesh lot of conviction over here... anyways like the rest of us I have a lot of growing to do as well.

So back to the fear thing.. our faith replaces the fear, fear cannot exist were our faith resides. So grab onto faith and keep her close to your side. Hold tight because you will need her every turn u make.

God bless!
♥Jill

[momof3]

heya Krystal,

sis, i remember feeling some of the same things you are at this time. I made my life plans..and shortly found that life usually doesnt turn out the way i planned and the htings i thought i wanted ended up being the worst things for me. His plan is so much better for us..and knowing that He has our best interest at heart, knows what we need better than we do, and that we are so much happier when we surrender our wills to His...takes some trials and tribulations to come to that realization..and trying it on our own, in our own ways. He knows the desires of your heart sis...and He will give them those He has planted there. Keep seeking Him and trust Him. There is no fear in His ways..He loves you and wants the very best for you..and for you to be happy..He just knows what will make you happier than you do. its all in the surrender...you'll see.

God bless you, sis.