update: God is good I am calm - my situation not so . . .

[Whisperingsprings]

a bit difficult at home.

looking for another job. not enough kindness where I am. i don't get it. we need to be careful with each other due to the stress. we don't have time to constantly stab each other in the back. i'm still choosing to be kind though.

definitely off into sites where I shouldn't be; but, it's slowly being corrected, again.

finally understanding why i am thinking and considering some of the things I am thinking. Sometimes, it's just that i want to escape the emotional pain. i think many people feel the same way. oh well, gotta be careful with that one.

found different "friends" of sorts who bring me to tears. one said don't cry. one told me i probably needed to cry. still stuffing those emotions when i can. sometimes the little buggers get away from me though.

one of my friends is in trouble i think. was beaten up pretty badly by their so. police called. friend is now "missing" or hiding. hopefully hiding.

still playing farmville and cafeworld, which helps me keep my sanity and control something.

confessing haven't journalled: it's just too painful.

not being a good Christian. Not being an ensample for others to follow. however, I am trying to consistently show kindness and patience at work. I take candy and give lots of hugs to other employees. I smile often and try to help. I am no longer "mandating".

I am not fighting for my children's health either though. It's very hard. I don't know how to manage our home situation. I can't afford to keep throwing out the unhealthy food my spouse brings home and feeds our children.

I prayed today and later found the wrapper of an ice-cream dessert that hubby ate. Not very good. I don't know what to do. but at least I'm not feeling the anger consistently.

I do feel abandonment though. but at least I laugh now. though that might be a bit of hysteria. oh well . . . it is what it is.

i've got to catch a bit of sleep so that i can make breakfast for my family and get us to church.

anyway, i posted this in another forum here in oasis. hopefully, i will get scripture to help me understand how to look at my situation and emotionally navigate it without too much pain. I'm also hoping someone will share part of their stories how God gave them that scripture and how it applied to their lives.

Need the scripture. don't have time for the emotional onslaught from the pain. i've got to stay level headed and keep things moving. have a great week everyone.

Merry Christmas.

[mlg]

Hebrews 13:5
Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

Psalms 4:6-8
6 There be many that say, Who will shew us any good? LORD, lift thou up the light of thy countenance upon us.
7 Thou hast put gladness in my heart, more than in the time that their corn and their wine increased.
8 I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety.

John 16:33
These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

Sis...the answers to all that you are going through...is found in the Lord...seek Him diligently...continually....and without ceasing....and you will be able to see Him begin to move.

Praying for you.

luv ya

[xxJILLxx]

hello whispering,

IM sorry things are difficult at home, i pray that things will get better for you.

looking for another job. not enough kindness where I am. i don't get it. we need to be careful with each other due to the stress. we don't have time to constantly stab each other in the back. i'm still choosing to be kind though.

wow i can so relate to this! So proud of you for choosing to stay kind to them sis! I know its hard sometimes, trust me i know ... but God sees all of our deeds good and bad, and He will reward you for doing what is Godly and righteous. Sometimes we are in places to shine His light toward them, when they see the light within us it convicts their spirit even without them realising why they are acting the way they are acting. Pray for them and bless them and forgive them. But you deserve to be treated with respect and if you arent being respected its time to look elsewhere.

not being a good Christian.

none of us are good, we all fall short... He forgives the repentant heart if you ask Him .

Forgiving ourselves used to be a battle within me before, until i realised it was a tool of the enemy.

If someone tempts you, cut them off.. dont be around them, dont associate with them... let them know you are trying to change and if they love you they will understand if they dont they will walk away. Keep surrounding yourself with believers who you can trust and has your best interest in heart.

Staying in scripture is so very important, setting aside a time during your day that u sit down and spend time with Him if you dont already do that i would def recommend that.. it really changes things, you become closer to God, Learn more about who He is and who you are in Christ, gives you encouragement and wisdom and so much more benefits that i ahve experienced since i have started to do this, and somedays i dont get to it and i tell u what, those are the days i wish i would of

Hang in their sis i hope you get into contact with your friend.

Gb
♥Jill

[Whisperingsprings]

someone responded to one of my posts and they understood where I was coming from because their spouse is in the icu after a triple bypass. same situation with the diabetes, eating, health concerns.

thank you everyone for praying so faithfully for me and our family. i do appreciate it.

yes, definitely, do better when I read my bible versus spending time on the internet

will keep coming back from time to time for accountability, though it might not always be very often.

Jill, thanks for understanding the work stuff. man oh man, i have got to change jobs i think. i would rather have a more intense position where i don't have time for finger-pointing.

it was quite sad. the last day i worked one of my colleagues asked me not to be upset and kept apologizing for what she couldn't finish and passed on to me to be completed. she was fearful with good reason . it's sad that people are hurting each other emotionally. people are fearful of losing their jobs and it shows up in the work-place. People are impatient with their families also (hand flies up in the air saying "yep, that would be me").

as far as me being a Godly example, definitey not. however, i am going to keep trying to be a kind person though. that is really important to me. I like the fruit of the Spirit. It helps everyone around me and me too. Hmmmmm, scratching head . . . . . . . . . getting an idea over here


I did better with the internet tonight. I came here alot faster after farmville and cafe world than I would have before, which is good.

gotta get into bed. i need to be awake when the kids are awake. TTYS everyone.

Have a great week. I'll try to stop by again sooner than later.

[mlg]

And I smiled...you choose to come here quickly tonight...that is making a righteous choice...and God is proud of you.

Hey sis, I don't think I've ever asked, but how many children do you have and how old are they? I have a 14 year old daughter...she's my only one...but she keeps me running for sure.

luv ya

[Whisperingsprings]

we have 2 boys. ages 7 and 9

[mlg]

Boys wow aren't they a blessing...I have 5 nephews...they are definitely a lot of fun.

[Whisperingsprings]

when is the chat thingy? i know it isn't this week which is fine. just wondering.

[mlg]

Hey sis,

It's on Monday nights at 9 EST or 8 CST.

luv ya

[Whisperingsprings]

thank you