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[sweetlittleangel]

step 8

yeah..today is another rollercoaster. while waiting to get registered..i was reading this step on my cellphone..it was amazing how i cud concentrate on the reading..absorbed wonderfully..eventho something funny happned later..for the registration..usually the staff wud asked for ic or id.. checked my purse and my ic was not there uh uh surprisingly i didnt panicked..and told the Holy Spirit bot it and trust on Him. so when they called my name..walked to the counter..and when she looked up and saw my face..she automatically smile..that was sweet..she didnt asked for my ic..handed back my specialist ortho card and the bill..she just smiled at me..i paid the registration bill and i smile back at her...thank you..then i went to the specialist clinic and met my doctor. he asked how did it goes..getting better or no..i smile at him and said...the left lower back still hurt once in a while...is there any improvement?..i said..smile again..he smile too..yeah..the right one..is getting better. except my right leg still numb.. i noticed,,he happy in his heart..while writing the words b e t t e r in the report, he smile bigger aww.. then he said..its ok..i know ur condition is a bit complicated and tricky to tackle..so we give u rest for few months..we wont do anything bot it for the moment..going to monitor how it goes within few months to come..and u come to see us again within 3 months..u went thru a lot (only two injection tho) aredy..and i understand u dun want to go for another one in sooner time..yea..thats right..i said..noo doctor i dun want another injection again he too kk we give u rest for a while k..u want painkiller or no..hmm yeah..this time i might need it..as at times couldnt stand when it hurts and cant sleep for it..at the pharmacy counter again..the staff didnt asked my ic..she just give my meds..and smile at me..i said thank you..woahh i smile a lot today esp with the staffs..then i went to buy drink..fter having my milk drink..throw it in the dustbin..then i remembered..i put the balance in that plastic..so i quickly took it back and get it..there s one man passing there..and he gave me a surprise look it was very funny ..bcoz he didnt know actually i forgot my money in the plastic. then again..i realized something missing in my hand..my specialist card..i forgot that too..haaaaa..i rushed back to the canteen and my card is still on the counter..yeah..my mind is somewhere else whole today..because i was focused on enjoying the Spirit presence..i was busy listening or talking to Him in my mind..

then go back home..i told my aunt bot my ic.. huuu i dun like when this happend..because we have to get back to my house tomorow to get it before my flight..i dun like burdening my aunt and uncle for that..the ic is in my other purse which i used during the dinner organized by our church last week..i forgot to transfer it back to my original purse..never forgot my ic all this while..few things pop up in my mind..how cud i did that? what wud they think?

as i read the step 8 for second time today..its related more or less of what i had in my thoughts after what i have experienced today..

yea..i often feel like the verses in Romans 7:17-25..theres few things in my mind today..i see..theres a battle in my mind..when the forgoting of my ic trying to make me feel bad..i found myself..saying.hey angel rejoice! yes..o wretched man i am..who can save me?..Jesus. yess..be rejoice.. is the enemy trying to ruin the garden that begin to establish?..oh woaah..another opportunity to fight and establish patience..fight angel fight..recaptured that thoughts and letting it go..phew..another hard work.

[mlg]

sla, you know what I see about your day? The Holy Spirit there covering you every step you made. Though you faced some trials, instead of getting upset and nervous, you handed it all over to Him immediately, and He just guided you right on through....and things went smoothly. Praise Him for being so faithful to those who love Him.

It is awesome to hear that the doctor says you are doing a bit better and I pray that in 3 months the results will be again even better.

Keep your thoughts on Christ sis....Keep allowing Him to spend the day with you...and you will keep seeing His presence moving all around you.

luv ya

[Dora]

Hello again my sweet friend.

All that smiling made me smile.

You truly are a blessing.

Glad to hear you had a good out come at the doctors office.

Do you wonder if remembering your money in the plastic and your card on the counter was just a little nudging from the Holy Spirit so you didn't get all the way home and then remembered.

God loves ya. He's got all this in his hands. He's smiling on you today as well.

God bless and keep you. Sending up prayers for you.

[sweetlittleangel]

yesterday morning..went to get my ic ty God its in my purse

at the airport..during the check in.. i had to tip toed as the staff at the counter cudnt see my face ..standing on toes..she cud barely see my eyes and nose ..gave my ic for her to check my flight..where u go she asked..i was blank at first, thought she know where is my destination to be..that was funny..as my flight had alredy confirmed..the total weight of my two suitcase were 20 kg..exactly the limit of given by them..woaahh..flight was supposed to be at 4.30pm, but delayed due to technical prob of the plane. ty God when we got landed, there was turbulence few mins after we took off, then we glided smooth on the cloud. was amazing the weather was bit cloudy and beautiful. my seat was in the middle..between two tall men..my head is just up to their chest level..but i didnt scared. we landed at 6.30 pm..and my parents, lil bro and my nephew..saw them from far..so happy to see them..esp my nephew..he asked me..auntie..u go plane just now? yeah i said..in the car he asked almost about everything we chatted..like..how the plane cud fly..i was like for the answer
there s few thoughts in my mind after i arrived..another fight to battle...it was my grandpa..seems like want to give up hope or faith..kinda a sad when my uncle told us just now..he had talkie about to end his life..he was a man full of faith all this while..grandpa had skin prob on his feet..becoz of the meds side effect..doctor told..he cud get easily upset...i sensed that he actually depressed by what or how my uncle and aunt saying to him about the matter.. i know he need love and acceptance..he is now at our home village..but with this i trust that He is in control..and i let it go in His hand..

sowwy..i may sound sleepy writing this letter..there s a lot to say..ill get back soon as possible..

yayyyy im home now..ty God for the safe and sound journey..

tomorow..we will travel again to our home village..off road..7 hours drive..
please pray for our journey tomorow...

i love you all

[Dora]

Hello sweet
That is funny your nephews asking you questions like that.
I'm sorry to hear about your grandpa. Saying a prayer for him.

Awwwwwwwwww Home again!
I love home.
I can sense the relief in your words.
Just something about home brings such peace.

Love ya dear sweet.

[momof3]

I dont think ive ever known such a sweet spirit as yours, lil sis. God bless you. I pray that you will be blessed and touched in every step you take lil one. i love you. You are an inspiration to so many, including me.

love you much

in Jesus,
momo

[mlg]

sla yippeee glad your flight landed safely and your now almost home. My prayers will be with you for a safe journey the next drive. May God guide your trip. I also must say it was great to hear that you didn't get scared on your flight...God had you the whole time sis...and He is smiling on you.

Look forward to hearing what else you have to share...sleep well my sister.

luv ya

[sweetlittleangel]

thank you thank you

for all the kind words and prayers.

this morning woke up early at 7 am..last nite sleep at 4am woah..our journey to our home village was great..the scenery was beautiful..took few photos...of the mountains, river..i guess the enemy really tried to get my family and me..on the way driving...we saw a beatiful mountain..with a very unique shape..we were talking about it in the car..then suddenly..there was a car popped up just about 1 inches in front of our car..real close..nearly got a head on..we didnt realized it coming from the other side...but mom the one quickly told that..eyyyy there s a car! my dad quickly swing the car to the right..we were safe...really praise God...later after that..climbing a small hill..there was a big rock in the muddy..at the middle of the road..dad tried to drive to the right, changed the gear to low four and so.. but the left wheels slipped into the muddy..and we kkinda got stucked at the top of the hill..bit nerve wrecking..but calmly i said..hmm why dun we reversed a bit..maybe it cud worked..then..yes it worked..we managed to escape and move on..once again ty God..at 6pm we arrived..there were grandma and grandpa waiting for us ..awwww..happy faces..we have some chit chat with grandma..if my lil bro and me cud get up at 5am this morning, we can join the church service which they have every morning here..but mostly elderly ppl..coz the young ppl cudnt get up t hat early..it is soo peaceful here..quiet..
when we got home..dad told us..he used to swing the car to the left,,but just now didnt know how he swing it to the right..as both car were at left side..
i know..the two angels..

here some of the pics

[mlg]

sla, so glad you made it sis. Thank you for the pictures too, they are beautiful....I know the trip must have been a little nerve racking...but God guided your path and you all made it safely...woohooo...what an awesome God we serve.

luv ya lots sla

[Dora]

What beautiful territory you live in.

When i read your Grandparents were smiling..I smiled. What a warm thought to come home to loving grandparents who were happy to see you. You are loved. You are blessed.

Praising God for your safe journey. Glad you are home.

Love ya sweet sweet precious little angel of God.
I am blessed to be your friend.

[sweetlittleangel]

hello dear everyone

im so sorry for few days not posting here. bit busy with family and babysitting my nephew. i missed when not being here ..even one day..im online from the school where my dad worked...3mins walked from our house . been rest a lot few days ago..sleep most of the time. maybe tired becoz of the last journey. today we had a fiesta in our village. we had a tradition here..when a couple blessed with a son or daughter..a fiesta will be held to change their names to a new name... all the villagers are invited to the long house..for lunch and dinner...dinner time is the main even will take place.. its kinda family gathering.. or our ethnic's culture..
last nite..went to join another family dinner at my cousin's place..all granmas, granpas, aunts, uncles, cousins, nephews and nieces were there..at first i dun feel like i want to go..when i arrived at their place..i dunoo..i dun feel like i belong there..i just want to go home..which is here..there was one of my cousin..gave me a cynical look..even when i tried to say something..my dad wud give me a meaningful look..the feeling of rejected is there..i just dunno why..yes..it just like..uh uh overwhelmed..want to cry i think..i dunno maybe becoz of the jelousy thingy or insecurities..but why wud they get jelous for a person like me..i dun have anything tho..in term of the worldy which most them are after for..when i evaluate the whole thing this afternoon... maybe the enemy tried to get me down..uh uh i loveee to fight..fight the good fight..fight angel fight.. instead taking the hurtful feeling...i choose to fight it with t he truth..He knows my heart..i know..and yes..the grace weapon.. let i t go and let God..wooooo what a relive..

today im step 9

woah..another huge stepping stone..yes they are empty feelings and doubts try to creep in..and when things tried to arise..fight is the word that keep me back on the track..thank you..for this one..to choose to show God's love by learning as much about Him..oh yes..the same question..how long Lord?..i did asked the same question..it was tough..when i learned to trust HIm and lean close to His heart..it is joyful to wait on God..learning to let it go..meaning give way to God to work something in our l if e..and it wud be such a joy when we see our life changing unfold one by one..patience is virtue..working on t his one too..and i believe He is gradually and patiently..strengthening my love and trust in Him..im sorry Lord for the time i loosed my patient...no rush..i feel a burdened today so that God will bring a change in my aunts, cousins and our big family..and i let it go in God's hand..
changing habit..woah..a major one..yes they are few old habits to break..and i determined to remove them forever.. and developed new good habits...yes love is an easy passion to follow...it is so much joy when i applied to my nephew, grandpa, grandma, parents and all all..and most of all..love for just being in His love..His pr esence..His grac e...focus angel focus..
yes..i need His help to remove the remain old habit and transfer the passion i had to serve Him...yes that is actually my passion..forgive me God for allowing other comes between You and me...
and im happy to separate myself from any friendship or even family member that wud take me from hope and love..as i seek to please God and not a people pleaser..i learned a lot there..
only with God is the true happiness found..maybe in the worldy eyes we are alone..oh no no..
we are never alone..never boring with God, Jesus, Holy Spirit and angels are with me always..
oh woahh..here is windy..i dunnno why im smiling now..becoz the three Guys are smiling ...ooh i love it..windy...rain..
yessss..there are few ideas..and im ecited of begin planting..

thank you God..for your grace today..

[mlg]

sla,

Sometimes others look at us with those looks because they find us peculiar or different. And in all honesty they maybe jealous, but not of what you have...but who you have...the love that Jesus bestows upon you. The enemy is always looking for ways to tear us down...whether it be a look by another, or something they say or do. But others do not define who we are. Only Jesus defines us. Be joyful in who God is making you to be.

So step 9 huh...still some doubt there. Yep that can happen when we are still afraid. But God doesn't want you to be afraid...He wants you to rely on Him and know that all is well. He loves you.

So good to hear from you sis. Enjoy your time with your family.

luv ya