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[xxJILLxx]

aww sis reading your posts blesses me soooo much!

You are a very precious soul!

I love ya sweet angel!

Gbu

♥Jill

[sweetlittleangel]

first of all i to ty God that i woke up today at the time exactly where c o o l church was just about to start awww praise the Lord

thought i missed it, but then when CO said..the c o o l church will be open now..woaaaa i feel so happy. fall asleep last nite with the light on as i was too tired due to back ache, legs discomfort and pms thingy uh uh

today..is amazing..

i lstened to this song..

Fearless..by Falling up
Empty house far away
Lost in lonely space
You know you've felt the same
From the shallows in love
To the depths of your scars
You know you want to change
In the rafters, a vate
Fixed and spinning late
There's a certain fear
Even light with control
Lights outside our homes
Wait for every tear

So exit the fall
And now it's over
You're learning
It's all before your heart
So exit the fall
And now it's over
You're learning
It's all before your heart

I found a way out
Through everything I've known
I'm walking fearless
With my faith down and all that I own
Don't take my picture
Cause I won't be there standing alone
I'm living fearless, so fearless
Like every day's my own

Steady hands in the planes
Calculated ways
To call it ailing in figure
Hearts far away
When you work so late
From a distant end

So exit the fall
And now it's over
You're learning
It's all before your heart
So exit the fall
And now it's over
You're learning
It's all before your heart
And now it's over
Before your heart
And now it's over
Before your heart

Call it what you want it, Call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices
Call it what you want it, call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices
Call it what you want it, call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices
Call it what you want it, call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices
Call it what you want it, call it just a game
Call it insane, all of these voices

[Rapped during previous part]
I'm calling from the back of your mind
From the places you'll never reside
Where your thoughts collide
See places and thousands of faces
All at the same time
Look, everybody close your eyes
Travel to the place in the back of your mind
The place you'll never reside
Where thoughts combine
See places and thousands of faces
All at the same time
All at the same time
All at the same time

as i listening the sounds of the piano..i feels like the scars reopen..and He is gently leads me to it, going down deep further that i left it remain untouched....thru the piano its really soothing yet He going down with me to help me to see them..i know i didnt dealt with it properly.

the next song i listened to is..

Broken hearts..by Falling up

In this moment synchronized inside, words that paint a legacy of life
A different picture will unfold, a healing finds it's way through
Sifted times I take another breath, with an ambience of nothing left
So heal my heart rain down your love these waters bring me back to life

Chorus:
Father, healer deliver me from broken love
Stay here, closer let me hear your voice of love

There's a healing calling from the wind, there's a healer waiting to begin
In timeless places, traced and faceless will I learn to let go
Take me to the heights where love controls,
far away from home but feels so close
This empty heart of mine will fall inside and bring me back to life

Chorus

You can hold,
You can mend,
You can heal,
You can break out hope 'cause something etched this way

Father, healer deliver me from broken love
Stay here, closer let me hear your voice of love
Savior, Redeemer bring me to this place of peace
Jesus, guardian my broken heart is so in need

im singing it out loud..

the third song i listened to is..

Falling in love..by Falling up

You are my one true love
You are the voice that is so sweet
In everything I do, you bring the best out of me
You are my wings to fly
You are the wind beneath them
I miss you every night, when I close my eyes
You put your feelings down
You stopped your tears you brought me love
You held to my heart
You held with hope to have me near
Sometimes I close my eyes
Sometimes I let my hunger rise
I think of all you are, you are the love of my life

(chorus)
All of my dreams and my passions
Are in your hands

You reached me in my need
Your rhythm flows under my skin
I need you desperately,
A sweet healing that will begin
You are my one true love
You are the voice that is so sweet
In everything I do, you bring the best out of me
My everything is you
The very motions that I move
And everything with richness
The richness of the peace you bring


Always, always you are with me
You are the love of my life
He comes to find you on your knees

yes..when im falling up.. im going up

then i go to step 5..and awww

yea, im slow. yes i did involve in the blamed thingy. in fact many times. for the things that had happened and is happening. in the end..most time i blamed myself.

instead of getting in touch with it, i bottled them up inside. like i dun tell my parents about what had happened between my aunt and me in these whole 3 years, only recently i told them. did it angered me..yes. did i channelled it thru revenge? no. i understand revenge belongs to God. now that i learned to adress them to Him and releasing me from the captive. fear? yes its something that hold me for long time. needed help a lot with that. prevent me from being productive. im letting that go now. replacing it with His truth..the sound of mind. woo. mistrust? yes, that too. He is teaching me about trusting in Him. yes im trusting that He is begining to release His power to work in my broken life little by little..in His time. maybe i wud not be ready if He release it all coz i wud not be ready for that..and i trust that He know what He is doing.

selfish..? yes i am selfish. no excuse for that.

im selfish for my problems arised in life where i put the blame on others and myself. i loosed my concscience when fear tried to creep in, and snatched the dreams away. only if i chose to fight..i wud not got into troubles again and gain.

yesterday during the sunday service, something that the pastor shared related to today study..he said..if ur problems seated there for long time..and u said..i dun want to bother anyone about it..or even God..which u been carried around for long without no progress..its time to step out of faith..in prayer..letting go and let God..trust and watch He will work it out.

and then we sing a worship God..suddenly i feel..the hall filled with some kind of annointing..joy..its the joy..He filled me with His joy..make me smile thru out the day..joy from releasing at the step 4..His grace
we smile a lot with each other..He is being playful yesterday


haaaaaaa..what a relieved.

and another hard work.

to add the fifth stone.

im listening to this song now

"Good Morning Planetarium" by Falling up

The fight is over now, the bright lights turned somehow
The strength I have is running out, the current pulls me down

I'm wondering

Is anybody out there, who's cold and incomplete, inside?
I can hear Him calling
Come and follow me, my child

The twilight turns to day, with all your love displayed
The stars they bow in awe, when the lost return to you

Draws up my heart deep from the well
I know He's Finding every lost and broken dream

from the eyes of confusion


and another song..

Maps..Falling up

One last hour before this place is on fire
Loosing all as the flames grow higher and higher
Here I stand

The further I'm from You, the harder I try to exist
Somebody tell me how did it come to this?
Take these blinds from my eyes and wake me from the inside

This last hour the night dropped into the sea
The light spread wide and the sky broke open and free
Here I stand

Further out, maybe you could meet me where I am
Further out, I know there is hope within Your hands



into the eyes of hope






pic of cloud taken yesterday..after the church service

[mlg]

good morning sla, I have lots to say, but am limited on time this morning, so will be back when I get to work.

luv ya sis

[mlg]

Hello sla

Oh the blame game....blaming ourselves over and over until we feel worthless....such a lie, and one that we have to weed out for sure. Blame is not what God wants us to do, instead He wants us to counteract the blame with the Truth that it isn't someone's fault...it's the enemy's fault.

Selfishness....this is a big one for me. I have been working on this for some time now. Not easy to get past because it's just a natural tendency to look at ourselves instead of God. If we would place more of our trust in God, and focus our thoughts on Him more, then we would see our own selfishness begin to lesson. Just takes work, and patience with ourselves.

That cloud is beautiful sis. Thank you for sharing that.

So stone 5 has now been placed in the garden. That stone is now sitting anytime you might need to step on it again.

luv ya sis

[Tam]

keep stepping sla....you are gonna make it
Luv ya

[comfy]

Chorus:
Father, healer deliver me from broken love
Stay here, closer let me hear your voice of love

heal us into Your love that can not be broken, and yet is more gentle and quiet and sweeter >

"Because Your lovingkindness is better than life,
.My lips shall praise You."
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . (Psalm 63:3)

Yes, there are people who Satan uses to make us think we should not trust anyone.
But . . . in God's love . . .

"Falling in Trust"

I'm floating smoothly along the river,
then suddenly I'm rushed down
through a straight and narrow pass
with rocks straight up on both sides.
Yes, we're over the dam . . .
now in trust with one another,
because we can not be in God's love
and not trust one another.

We can go into the water, together,
but not competing with the
gentle caressing of the water
refreshing and softly tickling,
then we can warm ourselves dry (o:

maybe i wud not be ready if He release it all coz i wud not be ready for that..and i trust that He know what He is doing.

Just today, Sweet Little Angel, I was thinking of how God could have us know what our calling is, but then for twenty years it would not work out, no matter how much we tried > because God knows we are not ready with being humble and honest for doing what He wants the *way* He really wants it done (o: So > > > He told us, a while before He knew we would be ready, so we could spend some time learning how to submit to Him and how to be humble and honest. So . . . like this, sister . . . I would say there are problems and needed healings that may not go away, right away, because we need to grow to be able to handle well how God has delivered us.

For example > He might take away my pain and distrust about how a woman cheated me and hurt me. Well, if I lose the fear, I might just get with another woman who would cheat me, before I become real enough to tell the difference, but also strong enough not to give in to a cheater person. And, of course, I am finding we are not Christians just in order to get God to solve our problems But we hear so much about solving problems, don't we

selfish..? yes i am selfish. no excuse for that.

and I am finding God is not interested in us just "confessing" or beating our own selves up for our failures > we can be guilt-tripping our selves in order to try to pay God off so we can then go back and do certain things of pleasure or unforgiveness again and again, instead of facing and going through the pain of God's correction which would put a stop to that stuff > Hebrews 12:1-11. And no one can straighten us out like God can; and as for revenge and criticizing *anyone* else, including an abuser > I can not straighten someone out as well as God can > so I can have such rest in trusting each person to You, LORD thank You so much for this
This includes how You, LORD, are able to straighten out any evil person, at all . . . including any abuser or person who cruelly neglects children. We need to trust them to You, and really mean we care about them and want how You are able to help and correct and heal and *cure* any person, at all, with Your love almighty in power against any evil whatsoever in a person . . . including >us<

yesterday during the sunday service, something that the pastor shared related to today study..he said..if ur problems seated there for long time..and u said..i dun want to bother anyone about it..or even God..which u been carried around for long without no progress..its time to step out of faith..in prayer..letting go and let God..trust and watch He will work it out.

and then we sing a worship God..suddenly i feel..the hall filled with some kind of annointing..joy..its the joy..He filled me with His joy..make me smile thru out the day..joy from releasing at the step 4..His grace
we smile a lot with each other..He is being playful yesterday

So, Sweet Little Angel . . . God did not just solve your problem, but He brought you into His joy. I see that God is not just for solving our problems, but He wants us to get with Him in His joy, sharing sweetly with Him, being pleasing to Him in His love's "incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God," (in 1 Peter 3:4) and submitting to how He rules us in His peace > Colossians 3:15 (o:

[sweetlittleangel]

thank you comfy

yes..im learning on how to submit willingly everything, anything, in whatsoever condition that i was in..trusting on how He will handle it..quietly and sweetly..gently

here is 2.40 am..raining..sitting in my bed..feeling His presence here with me..we were laughing and laughing again..well..not much talking from my side..letting Him filled my heart with the warmness..the weather is cold..yes..but my heart is warm..singing this song back from my heart..still listening to this song..

only hope..switchfoot

There's a song that's inside of my soul..
It's the one that I've tried to write
over and over again..
I'm awake and in the infinite cold..
But You sing to me over and over and
over again..

So I lay my head back down..
And I lift my hands
And pray.. to be only Yours
I pray.. to be only Yours
I know now You're my o..nly hope..

Sing to me of the song.. of the stars..
Of Your galaxy dancing.. and laughing
and laughing again..
When it feels like my dreams.. are so far..
Sing to me of the plans.. that You have
for me over again..

I give You my destiny..
I'm giving You all of me..
I want Your symphony..
Singing in all that I am..
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back ..

[mlg]

God is love...and He is faithful to those who love Him in return.

Keep smiling with Him.

luv ya

[comfy]

"Give it All"

Give it all, give it all,
give it all to our Lord Jesus,
and He will make all the difference
in all we give to Him.

So, let's give all, let's give all
to Christ our King and our Groom,
and He will lead us in love dance,
every footstep shared with Him . . .
through it all . . .

through it all . . .
though there be more problems to give Him,
there will be blessings gift-wrapped within them
as He feeds us His own love to live.

So, let's give all, let's give all
to our Personal Lover within us,
and He will make all the difference
in all we give to Him.

When it feels like my dreams.. are so far..
Sing to me of the plans.. that You have
for me over again..

Submitting to God may be like going to sleep, except we stay awake (o: When you want to sleep > if you try to make yourself go to asleep, your *trying* is going to keep you conscious (o: But if we be quiet and relax and don't try to control sleep > when we are *really* ready, sleep takes us so sweetly and gently. And, like this, if we do not try to control ourselves into how we think we should be submitting to Him, God takes us into His sweet and gentle rest of His peace, and then we discover His dreams for us coming true (o:

[Mackenaw]

I see you, Sweet

I see those sweet eyes, those kind eyes, those eyes that reflect the love of our Lord.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!

God bless you, Sweet.
Love,
Mack

[sweetlittleangel]

step 6

its a beautiful day today..my cousin come to my house this morning..he will be transferred to other workplace..so he stay over at our place for tonite..now is 1 am..he gonna leave by 4 am today..driving..aww gonna missed him. it wud be a moment i will always remember..today..he came..we went for lunch together..then went to our other cousin's place..on the way there..listening to christian's song in the car..i feel like we both connecting with the Spirit..since we both not much talkie with each other..but rather enjoying His presence in the car..its beautiful..5pm back home..then we walked to the stall nearby to buy burger..the moon shining brightly in the sky..the wind blows on our face..it was..very sweet moment..then prepared the mattress, put on bedsheet, pillow case.. in the living room..now he is sleeping peacefully..

miracle grow chart..yea..strenghten the soul..needed some work on it..as i realized it wud affect my emotion..on how i will react..focus angel focus...spending time in His presence is my joy..most time i dun talk much..its in my breathing..something deeper than talking..

this morning when i woke up..i listened to a song..and it keepp spinning in my mind today..before that..i thought i have put it out of my mind in the past..but this morning..it resurfacing in my thought..when i was 9 years old..i slept over at my cousin house..late at nite..suddenly i feel like someone pulled down my pants..quickly i woke up..thought it was my cousin's mom..i said..auntie, im not ur daughter..thinking that she was mistaken between us..since we two sleep together..i was very shocked..it was not my aunt..it was my cousin's grandpa. he keep pulling my pants..and i quickly got up and pushed him back...i..i..nearly being raped..yes it was real close. im still very awe for strength for me to fight back and made him back off..the next morning, when when all my cousins get together..i dun even told them about..his grandpa too acted like it never happened...never shared it to my parents either...becoz i dun want them to get hurt..but my mom sometimes wondered why did im not get comfortable mixing with guys..like my male cousins..or even the male lecturers..and i keep it with me..and this morning..He wants me to release it into His hand..i cant believe im writing this..He said..rejoice..

Rejoice..Chris Tomlin..album (See The Morning)

See the morning, see it rising
Over the mountains high..
See the mercy in the mighty hand of God

Living Water come and fill us
Only You can satisfy
Turn our sorrow into singing
The song of life..!

Rejoice, Rejoice
Sing with the angel voices!
Rejoice, Rejoice
All Heaven and earth rejoice!

Lord, Your strength is a tower
The righteous run into
Lord, Your love is a banner over us
And we hold on to the promise
That Your hold on us is true
There's no other like You, Jesus
No one like You..!

Always
Again I say rejoice
Always
Again I say rejoice
Always
Again I say rejoice
Always
Always

Rejoice, Rejoice
Sing with the angel voices!
Rejoice, Rejoice
All Heaven and earth rejoice!



when the dark clouds tried to surround u..

His glory..conquered it all.

[mlg]

sla, you precious lady....Today I see you taking one huge step...in being able to type out what happened with your cousin's grandpa, you have now brought a weed into the Light and can now pull it out. See this is something that has obviously been bothering you for awhile...and with you not telling anyone what happened, you've carried it locked up inside....now that you've shared...you can set yourself free and fly

Rejoice...a beautiful song....

luv ya