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[momof3]

All glory to God, sister. He is so very good.

about the book I really believe you are gonna find alot of truth in it. Pray too...let the Spirit speak to you.

In Jesus,
love momo

There are many many here lifting you up in prayer as you walk this walk, sis. God is so faithful.

[alicat1984]

Day 6: Miracle grow huh? Well, I have my chart printed out, filled out and ready to go!!! I am so excited about these new goals I have set for myself. By the way, one of my topics is to look at myself in the mirror everyday and say something positive about myself. I am going to turn the way I think about myself around. I have the Love Dare books for me and my fiance and he is super excited about us doing this. We are actually leaving for the beach tomorrow morning for the weekend and he said he wants us to start on this book at the beach! He is so supportive of me. I told him that I am working on myself and my relationship with God and he said he is there for me all the way and wants to work on his relationship with God also. He said we need to support each other and help each other. He is so right and that we are!

[momof3]

I pray you both have an awesome time together this weekend. I pray also for your relationship first with the Lord and also with your fiance. God's perfect will be done. Sis, the Lord is doing so much in your life. And there is so much more HE wants to do. When you look in the mirror...try to see you as He sees you. As His child. His passion. His love. God bless you both!

In Jesus,
love momo

[alicat1984]

Day 7: Well, I had to skip a few days, but I continued with my miracle grow chart. My fiance and I started the Love Dare book Friday at the beach and we are both really enjoying this and I opened up to him Friday and he opened up to me yesterday in a way he hasn't before. We both have some personal things we need to work on, but having each other and doing this together is really going to help us grow so much.

So today comparing my body to the temple of God is hard to do, because I know that I haven't treated my body this way lately. I have allowed thoughts to enter my mind and I can't seem to get rid of them. This chart is really going to be helpful for me and I am going to do this daily to get the negative thoughts out and allow the positive thoughts room to grow.

[momof3]

Im really excited for you both. God is so good.

One day at a time...thats all you gotta do. Replace the whispers from the enemy and your own mind and replace them with the Truths from the Lord.

Im looking forward to what the Lord is going to do in your life.

In Jesus,
love momo

[alicat1984]

Day 8 and 9: Okay, so I have been doing my stepping stones one day at a time, I just haven't been able to journal for the past few days. I did however journal in my journal at home and wrote down some things that stuck out to me each of these 2 days.

Day 8: I know we say that Satan is the problem and not us. This day made me realize that this a true statement, but we allow Satan to control our minds. I need to quit allowing him access to my mind and control over it. He knows what buttons to push even more than we do. The part where it talks about having trials and tribulations shows that Satan is still interested in us as being a good thing really caught my attention. It seems every time that I feel so close to God is when things start turning for the worst. Every time I think I have my life in order, something happens to knock it way out of whack. This piece of information has brought so much peace to my mind and yeah I know that's weird, but I have become thankful of all the things that haven't gone my way in my life, because God has a total different plan for me than I had for myself. I never wanted to get married and have a family, I was that selfish!!! God is showing me, with the help of this program and my fiance, that this is His plan for me and now I want nothing more than to get married and have a family. I found myself thanking God for allowing things to happen to take away my plans for myself. I know over the past few months I hav elost my way, but I also know that I have never been as happy as I am now. The devil knows what my greatest fears are and he has been controlling my mind with them lately, but not anymore. I have been pulling weeds like I never have before and to get rid of things I don't want in my mind is so amazing. I have always just pushed them down as far as I could, they always came back and normally stronger than when I pushed them down. Not any more!!! I refuse to let Satan control my mind anymore!!!

Day 9: I loved the part that said think on things you want and not on things you don't want. I have been so guilty of this. Satan knows what my biggest fear is in a relationship and he has so been using that fear to make me think on things I don't want and worrying so much that they could happen. I sang in a Christian rock band and Satan tore us apart. He got in the middle of our band and for a long time, I blamed myself for what all happened. One of the members wife was cheating on him and we were doing everything we could to be there for him. None of us saw this coming, not her! Then to top that off, him and one of the wives of one of the other members told us on Valentines Day this year that they are in love. So not only did he get cheated on, but him and another good friend of mine did the same thing to her husband that was done to him. We were all so close and I never would have believed something like this could happen. I blamed myself for not seeing it and not being strong enough to prevent it from happening. Then I got angry with God because he allowed this mess. That is just it, He allowed it, it was their choice that made it happen and they allowed Satan to control their minds. I guess since I was so close to them and never expected this to hapen, it has put a huge fear in my life that it will eventually happen to me. My fiance was there supporting me through all this. I was diagnosed with general anxiety disorder when all this was going on and the Dr told me that I need to quit trying to control things and worrying about things that I can't control. He said I need to quit taking on other people's problems and trying to fix them. It only caused problems within myself. My fiance has been telling me over and over that I can't fix everything and I need to put this in God's hands. It took me thinking horrible thoughts about him to do what he says. He knows how I feel about cheating and I know he would never do that. Everyone says he cherishes me like he cherished his mother, who was his best friend. She passed away 2 years ago and his sister told me that she has never seen him with anyone like he is with me. She said just the mention of my name brings the biggest smile to his face. She told me the other day that he told her I am the treasure that he has searched the earth for and that God just dropped me in his path, right when he needed me. The same is true for him. God knew I was going to need someone special to be here for me through all the stuff with my band and this horrible stuff I have had going on in my mind. God knew that the band was going to split up and not in a good way. He gave me my fiance to be my anchor through all this. My fiance tells me everyday to be positive because I have no reason to think bad of myself. He is right, I don't!!! I am made in God's image!!!

The part where it talks about how long has it taken for my problem to develop into something that I realized it will take God's hand to remove and the distance that has developed between me and God really got my attention too. I wanted God to just take it away instantaneously and when he didn't I turned away and tried to fix it on my own. What a big failure I was at fixing it. I came to this site because I really needed some help and it it the best decision I have made. This site has literally turned my world around! I realize that I have to be patient and let God help me deal with this one day at a time. That is what I am doing. I made me a habit chart and I am going to start with something small and build my way up to the bigger bad habits I have.

[alicat1984]

Day 10: Wow. It seems like things just get better and better the more weeds I pull and good seed I am letting God plant. I woke up early this morning and just felt amazing!!! So, this here again is showing me that I need to be patient and not expect everything to just be removed at once. With each passing day I am starting to set a new daily goal for myself, starting small of course. To fulfill those daily goals give me so much hope that I can achieve the bigger goals that will take longer to fulfill. Praise God for all that He is doing in my life right now. My fiance told me that he can tell I am getting back to my old self everyday. The thing is though, my old self that thought I was so close to God, never got rid of the filth in my mind and the new self is. I told him, no, I am becoming my new self and explained what I was talking about and he told me that I was so right. I told him I don't want to be my old self that pushes everything down in my mind and bottles everything up inside, but I want to let go of it and get it out! There is so much freedom in doing that!

[momof3]

akicat,

You remind me sooo much of me! I used to think when I asked God to do something in me, like a bolt of lightning, Id suddenly have thr virtue I was asking for. Its only through trials and tribulations that our faith...and patience... and all the things God wants to instill in and teach us! Falling down and getting up..we wouldnt know what patience is if it werent for waiting on Him to work out situations in our lives. He is so good!!

Not long ago, my family was faced with something that hit us like a ton of bricks..and shook my faith to the core. I, too, was angry with God. I knew He could have prevented it from happening, but He didnt..not in the way I wanted Him to. It took nearly 16 months of wandering in a dry desert place (with God right there with me) to allow Him to lead me back and show me that He was there with me and that He was going to use the situation to turn around lives..not only mine, to bring even closer to Him, but in the lives of many..including one of my sons. He knew I was angry with Him..and I believe He understood..but He wanted to show me that I was angry with the wrong one...and seed His love deeper and deeper into my heart and soul.

Your posts bless me more than you know. Keep going girl. He is just beginning. No matter what the situation looks like, He is there with you..and He is in control.

In Jesus,
love momo

[alicat1984]

Thanks momo. Your encouragement blesses me more than you know.

Day 10: Wow, I definitely am working on surrendering my life to God right now. I am weeding my garden and planting good seeds of God. It is truly a miracle that God is working out in me right now, so back when it says miracles take time, it is so true. Like I said before, I wanted God to just take all this away immediately. I didn't want to wait. I guess the correct way to put it is I was not patient and in a way didn't believe that God would take these problems away since He didn't do it when I asked. Man am I glad I started this program. God is teaching me patience and He is giving me peace! I am so filled with the Holy Spirit as I type this. I have goosebumps all over and I can't stop smiling. Just 2 weeks ago, I didn't feel like smiling and now, I can't frown!!! How amazing our God is if we just step back and let Him in and take control of our lives!!! It is God that led me here. I prayed desperately for help that I knew I could only find from Him and he guided me to this site and to you all who have encouraged me, especially you momo. You are a Godsend. I have not once thought about giving up or quitting this program and it is you all's encouragement and the Holy Spirit that I have let back into my heart that are pushing me through.

[momof3]

I praise the Lord with you! He never ceases to amaze me. His love is so pure..and whole.

Sister in Him, He has blessed me so much through this walk with you. And Im sure He has blessed many through your posts. Watching God's truth being poured into someone's heart....it brings me to joyous tears...joyful and humbled all at the same time. Glory to God!

God bless you.

In Jesus,
love momo

[alicat1984]

Day 13: Man, only one more day? Today's lesson was perfect for me. I have shared already that I had fallen and stayed down for so long. I didn't think God would want anything to do with me anymore. Boy did I let Satan get to me!!! Not anymore. I have been weeding the negative thoughts that he had planted in my mind that had roots so deep it was hard to get them out, but I have been pulling them out one by one and allowing God to plant thoughts of positivity and love. I have been picking myself back up and now I am standing again. I can't believe the difference I feel already! It is only with God's grace and help that I am able to stand again. Praise God for his infinite love and acceptance of the lowliest sinners. Just when I thought all hope was lost, He stepped in and showed me He was there all along, just waiting for me.

[momof3]

woohooooo! alliecat...one more day to go!! but know what else? Its here...so, if you ever want to come back in here for a refresher...you can come back at any time. The Holy Spirit....new every day. Like reading the bible...its alive with the Holy Spirit...each time you are led back here to walk the steps again...theres something new He wants to show you. Also, read back and see where you are now compared to where you started out! God is so amazing. He is so good...and faithful.

Youve done such an awesome job. Its been a blessing to walk these steps with you.

When i read your post today, I was reminded of all the times throughout Jesus' ministry here on earth, when He healed someone, He told them to get up...to move out of the place they were in...which means, down....fallen....thats where He meets us....wherever we are when we seek Him. He tells us to get up...the enemy would have us believe that when we have fallen, we are too far out of God's grace to get back up and ask for healing and forgiveness. Just the opposite!!! He helps us get back up...!!

God bless you, sweet sister in Him. Im looking forward to where He leads you next. Praying for you and your fiance!

In Jesus,
love momo