Making adjustments
Posted: Thu Aug 18, 2011 11:09 pmSo many adjustmens coming my way, I am sooo overwhelmed! Getting out of this relationship brings so much relief, but brings on so many anxieties as well. I will have to adjust to a MUCH smaller place, being on my own with two kids, probably having to get a part time job and being alone. While the relationship has been so crummy for so terribly long, there have still been a few good times here and there. It will be hard, because I can't stand to be alone. Being with a 2 year old and 7 year old 24/7 is not what I call having good conversation. LOL! My nerves are shot so bad lately that half the time I feel like I am gonna throw up. Been packing a little bit almost every day when he aint home, because I been trying to put off telling him till I have to. Now he knows beyond a shadow of a doubt, because my son aint in school and I have had to start taking the things (that are obvious to the eye) that I REALLY wanna make sure I get should he explode and start destroying our things. I am soooo exhausted! I will be sooo glad when this is all over and we can settle into our new place. Oh yes, then there is the custody issue. I am so sick of our family court system! I have a court date coming up on the 24th of this month that has got me on edge. I was ordered to pay the GAL from our divorce $50 a month till it is paid off. I missed one month, but the next month I made a double payment on the very first day of the month. Well now they are dragging me back into court over it again. I am scared to death, because the judge had told me that if I missed even one payment I would go to jail! This of course is all happening in the same week that I am supposed to go and sign the lease and get into my new place! If I end up in jail, not only will I lose my place, but probably my kids as well. I have never ever been to jail in my life! I am just soo stressed out and overwhelmed right now!
Lani
