A letter to an eating disorder
Posted: Sat Jun 11, 2011 10:36 pmDear Anorexia/bulimia,
When we first met about 17 years ago, you seemed so nice. You told me that if I would follow you, that you would show me how to be happy. You told me that you would show me how to find my selfworth by following your simple guidelines. You told me that you would be my best friend and that you would help me to have "that perfect body". At the time, I thought that this was what I wanted, needed to do. In the beginning, you showed me how to lose weight. People told me that I looked so great. I felt great! I was finally achieving that perfect image that I had always wanted. I was so thankful to you for your help.
Then one day you changed. You became my captor and I became your slave. You took away my freedom, my sense of self worth and you pushed away all those that cared about me. You robbed me of the right to be the child of God that I was born to be. You filled my heart with fear, you filled it with loneliness. You filled it with nothing but misery. What happened here? You were supposed to be my friend. I have told you to go away, to just leave me alone, but you are not that easy to get rid of. The more I fight you, the more you fight me back. I think I am losing this battle. I hate you! You were never my friend!
It's about time for us to say goodbye now. I don't know how, but I will defeat you! I will!
When we first met about 17 years ago, you seemed so nice. You told me that if I would follow you, that you would show me how to be happy. You told me that you would show me how to find my selfworth by following your simple guidelines. You told me that you would be my best friend and that you would help me to have "that perfect body". At the time, I thought that this was what I wanted, needed to do. In the beginning, you showed me how to lose weight. People told me that I looked so great. I felt great! I was finally achieving that perfect image that I had always wanted. I was so thankful to you for your help.
Then one day you changed. You became my captor and I became your slave. You took away my freedom, my sense of self worth and you pushed away all those that cared about me. You robbed me of the right to be the child of God that I was born to be. You filled my heart with fear, you filled it with loneliness. You filled it with nothing but misery. What happened here? You were supposed to be my friend. I have told you to go away, to just leave me alone, but you are not that easy to get rid of. The more I fight you, the more you fight me back. I think I am losing this battle. I hate you! You were never my friend!
It's about time for us to say goodbye now. I don't know how, but I will defeat you! I will!
