Trapped

[Worship Leader]

I am struggling with sexual sin. I have prayed for many years to be delivered from this struggle and that the Lord would fight the battle for me. Days would come where I am strong enough spiritually to say no and I am able to resist the impulses, but then days would come when I am not able to resist and I fall into sexual sin brought on by unclean thoughts. When I fall, I go to the Lord in prayer, but often feel like I am not truly repenting of the sin because I keep falling time and time again into the same sin. There's no change. Therefore, I find it hard to forgive myself and move on. I even sometimes doubt my salvation. I feel trapped spiritually and I am trying to break free. I know I can't do it on my own, but appearantly I must be trying to fight the battle on my own instead of the Lord fighting for me. I feel unfaithful, worthless and rebellious against God.

[Dora]

Joey I feel for you.

Are you working any steps or programs to help you overcome these things?

Love ya bro

[akita777]

Hi brother, I just want you to know that there is freedom in Christ from sexual sin. I know you have heard it all before and still it persists. If I'm guessing right, maybe you were exposed early in life to porn or your father or brothers had the same problem. At least that was what it was like for me. This does not excuse us but maybe it will give you some perspective. 9 yrs. ago I ended up in the hospital because of choices I made and the consequences being more than I could bare I needed medical help. When I left the hospital I prayed that the Lord would show me what the first sin was that he wanted me to give to him and work on. Sexual sin was at the top of the list.

I began to get help through a Christian recovery program held at a local church. It was called "Celebrate Recovery". I would strongly encourage you to see if you can find a group in your area to work through the issues of this particular addiction.
http://www.celebraterecovery.com.au/

After 3 years of attending I no longer look at porn and the Lord is glorified in that. Be vigilant brother, you CAN overcome this. God wants us to and there is help out there for you. Staying isolated is the worst thing to do. In a group you will find more and more people that can relate to your struggle. You will hear yourself in their story and I am confident that the Holy Spirit will minister to your broken heart .... With much love in Christ... Steve

[akita777]

Just wondering how you are doing? Hope all is well. Stay in the fight! Steve