I am losing the battle......and giving in.....
I am sorry to all of my friends here at the Oasis.  I try to stay with it...do what I know I need to do....live the way I know to live.....to trust Him.....but it is a lost cause.  I feel like I am a waste of time to everyone in here.  You all are so gentle, non-judgemental, and accepting, and willing to help but maybe I am one of those people who just can't be helped.  I have lost a good portion of my faith and trust.  I am so confused and am seeking comfort in other places.  Not good places.....not places I would want Jesus to go in with me....I must be crazy.....no sane person does these things....no one in their right mind would be able to do this and not die of guilt and shame!  All I can say is that I am sorry.....please forgive me..... 
			
 I wanna share some words that were HS inspired that i was so touched by  that i copied and pasted it onto word to glue into my bible (good thing cuz i wasn't able to locate it here.) 
  I would like to share those words  with you:
