Still rembering new abusers of sexual abuse

[ciny]

I was sexualy abused by family members and non family,i will start with my recent memory i had a nightmare recently and rembered sexual abuse
when i woke up im not sure if i faught back i went on a weekend trip when i was a teenager i think 15 years im 42 years old now,its was a end of the year sporting event i was touched by a Lady coach,im still rembering things from this i dont rember fighting back i was scared all my life i was violated when some one is nice to me i get scared i have trust issues and push people away,i forgive people easy and iam getting better at trusting i need to work on isolating my self from people and the world
im getting better with Help from my Lord Jesus i feal like crying :cry: but nothing whants to come out i do cry in my sleep i wake up crying :cry: i pray for the people who abused me it is helping me to forgive them and to heal.the thing that is helping me is that Jesus forgave me of my sins and he forgave them to if they repented for their sins to we all fall short of the glory of God i never could say this before i would love to see them repent and be in heaven the memorys are still painful

[Dora]

Hello Ciny

Sis do you know it doesn't matter if you fought back or not. No matter what you did or didn't do, the blood of Jesus Christ can wash you white as snow.

I have a question for you. Why do you feel you need to isolate yourself from people?
i need to work on isolating my self from people and the world

When you learn the voice of God you can begin to trust Him to guide you into situations and out of situations. He is willing and able to protect you. If you are willing for His help and you listen to His voice.

i pray for the people who abused me it is helping me to forgive them and to heal.


That is so awesome! Way to go sis.

I pray for you Ciny. I see a woman who loves the Lord. I see a God who loves the gentle kind heart with in this woman. Your Father God adores you. Wrap yourself in His love. Turn to Him in every situation. He cares for even the smallest of things.

Have you begun the cccc steps Ciny? They will help you get even closer with God.

[ciny]

Hi Pine
i started isolating my self in my teens from my family and others i didnt want to get hurt anymore i guess a lot of it is fear rejction and being hurt i need a lot of help in this area, yup i started the cccc steps im going on day 4