update

I had enough courage to go to my pastor and ask for help. Big step for me, He told me that it would be best to find a lady in the church whom I could talk to about it. I gonna be able to tell her today when she gets home from work, she my old sunday school teacher. I still struggling, so much is going on and Its hard not to show it and keep everything held in. I praying this is the right person to tell
yeah that about covers how i feel to talk to grandparents n they'd get mad at me, and I don't want to get in trouble just need to be able to trust someone not online for this. there it is in a nutshell of where I am. Would it be a good idea to start a journal? Just wondering.

