My Journal...My Journey....My Body...His Temple

[kimby]

Awww Dais! Wish I was there to wrap you up tight in a ((((hug))))!
I am sorry the day was a stinker, but oh so glad that God provided you with the fellowship and comfort you needed!
Love you!

[Daisy50]

Thanks kimby...Love you too *hugs*

Saturday morning. Another sign that things are going to be okay...life goes on...andddd.....our neighbors are having a YARD SALE! I'm going to eat breakfast, then walk over and see what kind of "goodies" they've got for sale.

Wasn't sure if I'd sleep any, if at all last night...But I did. Comforter and warm sheets from the dryer provided warmth(it had turned off cool again last night/early this morning). I got Buster and Chubby and put them on the bed with me, took out my Bible and read 4 chapters last night. Popped in a movie afterwards, thought it would take my mind off of the days events....I fell fast asleep. Woke up this morning at 745. Must have slept like a baby. I feel refreshed, renewed...re-energized to face the day.

I managed to thank God and apologize to Him for my behavior. I spent a lot of time asking Him to heal my doggie these past few weeks...I should have been more focused on realizing HE knew what was best, and that my doggie was not going to "recover".

Breakfast: 2 Cups oatmeal, 1/2 bottle water.

Daisy

[Daisy50]

Fell asleep this afternoon while studying. Woke up at 4. Drove to the store and picked up more doggie food for our other 2 and some treats......Came home, made them dinner and fixed something for myself.

Dinner: Lettace greens with 2 cups fresh mushrooms, 2 small turkey burgers on whole-grain bread. 1 glass gingerale.

957p.m. Stomach is growling. I'm outta' yogurt, so I think I'll grab some grapefruit wedges.

Finally am winding down...Looks like I might be going to bed early tonight.

Daisy

[Daisy50]

Sunday afternoon...2:33p.m.

Breakfast: a few grapefruit wedges. 1/2 bottle of water.

Enjoyed the morning sunshine. Washed and cleaned my car. Dried it off, buffed it. Looks good as new....Shiny! Parked it back in the garage. Pollen is still blowing around.

Lunch: 1 garden salad with mushrooms and red kidney beans. 1 glass of Ginger-ale. I was hungry-ate every bit of it!

Getting ready to have an afternoon snack. Going to boil up a couple of eggs and make egg salad. Will have it with a couple of slices of whole-wheat toast.

Dinner @ 4 will be: Turkey burgers w/ lettace. 1 bottle of water.

Haven't weighed myself recently. I feel smaller, I'm losing weight in my stomach. Clothes are fitting better. Three weeks til Memorial Day. Praying I am down another size by then....I need new clothes!

Daisy

[Daisy50]

Breakfast: 1 whole wheat bagel w/cream cheese and 3 oz. grapefruit wedges. 1/2 bottle water.


Have been on a mad run since breakfast. Went to Wal-mart(grocery shopping-anddd I picked up a new pillow and some other "goodies" for the house).

Late lunch/early dinner: 2 chicken hot dogs, 2 Tablespoons of cole-slaw with mayo, a small hand full of honey-mustard & onion pretzels. 2 bottles of water.

Sun is out! It is warming up! I love it! Hoping for more of the same tomorrow...I am now feeling up to doing some things outside.

Afternoon snack: 1 blueberry yogurt.

Evening snack: 1 strawberry yogurt.

Thank You Lord for guidance today. Thank You for peace of mind. Thank You Lord for allowing pain and grief to be short...Thank You Lord for helping me feel that my life is back on track after these past few days.

TO GOD I GIVE THE GLORY....AMEN

Daisy

[Daisy50]

Wednesday morning 10:27a.m.

Woke up at 8a.m. Let the doggies out while I fixed breakfast. Then let them back in.

Breakfast: 1 bagel w/cream cheese, small glass of cranberry juice.

Gave "Chubby" our Maltese, a "haircut"(he was looking like a rag-a-muffin).

Was able to fit into a pair of shorts I'd accidently shrank in the dryer last year. That 20 pound weight loss I've had helped. wooo hoooo!!!

Got bills together-stamped, and ready to head out-first to the post office, then to the bank.....a gush of rain came before I even got out of the house. Threw on a jacket and put a sweatshirt over my head to keep from being soaked before getting to the car.

Drove to the bank and signed up for a debit card and ordered more checks.

Came home. Doggies are doing what they do best......lazing about the house. Bless their lil' hearts.

Early Morning Snack: 4 slices of thin-sliced ham and 2 very plump and juicy strawberries, 1 bottle of water.

All is quiet. Rain is still coming down, but not in buckets like it was earlier. Wind is cool, but feels nice. Windows are open in the house. Love that fresh breeze.

God has given me another day to remember funny things my "Muck-a-Lucks" used to do. Thank You Lord \0/

Nothing else planned for the day, unless it stops raining...then I need to go back to Wal-mart and pick up a new printer. With hubby's job he has to send paperwork of his "jobs" to his accountant at the end of every month. It's my "job" to make sure they get copied and sent out in the mail.

Hebrews 11:6 But WITHOUT faith it is impossible to please HIM: for he that cometh to God must believe that HE IS, and that HE IS a rewarder of them that diligently seek HIM.

Daisy

[Daisy50]

Thursday morning 7:21a.m.

Didn't post last night's dinner on previous post...so here it is. 2 chicken patties(veryyyy spicy), 2 servings of mashed potatoes and 3 servings of cooked spinach. 1 bottle of water.

Fell asleep on the couch watching t.v. later on last night. Woke up a couple of times during the night, but stayed on the couch. Didn't feel like going into the bedroom to sleep, although I should have. This morning I am feeling particulary tired. I feel a nap coming on sometime during the day.

Another cold morning. Glad I slept with the heat on last night! In the 40's. Sun is out, skies are blue.

Breakfast this morning......7a.m.
4 plump & juicy strawberries, 1 glass of cranberry juice, 4 slices of thin-sliced ham

9a.m. Early morning snack: blueberry yogurt

12 noon...Lunch: tuna fish(with boiled egg whites & 'smart choice' brand mayo), wrapped in lettace leaves, 1 bottle water.

2p.m. Afternoon snack: strawberry yogurt.

4p.m. Dinner: Turkey burgers with a garden salad. 1 bottle of water

Evening snack: blueberry yogurt.


Thanking the Lord for another beautiful, albeit cold morning.

I hear a bird singing in the distance. What a lovely sound this time of morning.

The neighborhood kids will be lined up at our street corner soon, to catch the early school bus. And cars/trucks from our neighbors will soon come down the street as they make their way to their jobs, or wherever else they're going for the day.
Another group of kids catch the bus @ 8a.m.....then all will be quiet again until 9:30a.m., when our lil' neighborhood will come alive again with the rumble of the township trucks doing work on the streets, or delivery trucks making their appointed stops.

Doggies are lazing about the house. I think they're finally getting used to the quiet.

I still am having trouble looking out the kitchen window(it overlooks hubby's office, and that is where Lucky always was-laying on top of the desk on a pillow, looking out the window or napping). Don't know how long it will be before I stop "seeing" him there. In the meantime I've told hubby that I am buying a curtain to go over the window, because I'm still not used to Lucky being "gone". Tomorrow will be 1 week...The tears still come, although not as often. Dangit! *grabs a tissue*

Daisy

[stillstanding]

love you daisy

[Daisy50]

love u too sorta

Daisy

[Daisy50]

Friday evening, 7:35p.m....

Breakfast: Corn beef hash & eggs. 1 bagel. I small glass of cranberry juice.

Car went in for oil change this morning. Went to Wal-Mart afterwards(been needing a new printer). Was totally excited-I bought a more updated printer at a clearance price.....Got it home....Have to take it back. It doesn't have a USB plug-won't "fit" my laptop. So tomorrow morning, I'm going to have to go to Target(where I got my last printer from).

Lunch: 1 tomato-diced into good sized chunks, 1 bottle water, a few slices of deli-style ham and a couple of Tbsp. of coleslaw.

Dinner: 2 breaded chicken patties, 2 servings spinach. 1/2 bottle of water.

It was 1 week ago today that I had my doggie put down. I walk around the house and say outloud how much I miss him. I "told" him today about how pretty the weather has been since he passed on...how the flowers are starting to bloom, the grass is greening up(and will be needing a good mowing before too long), and how much Poppy(hubby), Buster and Chubby miss him as well.

My being able to notice all the changes the spring-time has gone under I totally feel is God's way of helping me to let go of the past month when my lil' guy was so sick. Being able to see the beauty that HE is surrounding me with sure does help ease the pain, but there is still that soft spot in my heart that remains at the moment, very tender and allows me to shed a tear.

I continue to thank God for bringing Lucky into our lives. He was a joy, and a delight(despite how much he barked at EVERYTHING/EVERYONE!!! LOL!!!

I wish I could have him back one more day...But I know he is pain-free and enjoying his life now.

Daisy

[Daisy50]

Saturday morning...8:03a.m.

Woke up earlyyy this morning, around 5:30a.m.

Let the doggies out while I boiled a pot of water.

Breakfast: 1 bowl of oatmeal, 3 oz. grapefruit wedges, 1 small glass of cranberry juice.

Listened online to Beth Moore's teaching on The Beatitudes. She really gave some good visuals on the types of ppl who'd gathered with Jesus and His disciples during His teaching(Matthew 4:23-25 & Matthew 5:1-11). Really gave me "food for thought" as I read about those who were sick, ill and afflicted who came to see Him....they were those , who, according to Matthew 24 were...."taken with various diseases and torments, and those which were possessed with devils/demons, those who were lunatics, had 'the' palsy"...and HE healed them.

I think back to days when I thought I had to be perfect in order to come to God. That I had to be "spotless", "blameless"...before He would have anything to do with me. Wow, how much I have grown since!

Striving for perfection in any area in our life will end up knocking us down everytime. All we have to do is to be able to accept who we are-with ALL our faults, when we come to His Throne. His forgiveness of our sins, His shed blood on the Cross-that's what we need to make ourselves "perfect".

We are so tuned into what the world perceives us to be if we "slip up". I continue to pray that I can get past what others see me as, and focus on what HE sees regardless of the world's view of my not having what they call "willpower".

It is thru HIM that we become perfect. NOT by some act that we do on our own, because if we could do it on our own, we wouldn't be reaching out to HIM, now would we?

Thank You Lord for Your Word. May it continue to give me insight into all that YOU want me to be.

Daisy

[Daisy50]

Sunday...Mother's Day.

Woke up early. Got dressed and went to Wal-Mart to return a printer. Then drove to Target to see what they had in stock. BINGO! Found a printer for 50 bucks. It works like a charm.

Lot of traffic out this morning. Everyone enjoying the mild temps and spending time with their moms today. I enjoyed getting out and driving around.

Didn't eat anything until later this afternoon....

Dinner....4:30p.m. Turkey burger with cheese. 1 bottle of water.

Looked thru the weekend's mail...We received a sympathy/condolence card from the Vet & his staff(they even included a paw print of "Muck-a-Luck's" on the inside of the card.

6:00p.m. Grabbed a book, went to bed to read. I think I read 10 pages before putting it down, popping a movie into the vcr, and fell asleep for a couple of hours.

8:00p.m. Took out the trash and recycleables.

Neighborhood is quiet...Not a sound....Love it!

9:55p.m. Thinking of a snack. Blueberry yogurt is calling my name.

Thank You Lord for Your MANY blessings. Even if I don't recognize them at first-I know You are always looking out for me, always looking over me. I thank You Lord for my mom.

I hate that I don't get to spend a lot of time with her-this living miles apart from all my family is crazy, but I am thankful that I am only a phone call away.

Thank You Lord for keeping hubby safe while he is on the road. I know what he is doing is a tough job. I hate that he has to be away so much, but I continue to pray for him and ask that You keep him and others on the roads, safe. May You guide everyone to their destinations safely.

Thank You Lord for helping me turn my craving for cigarettes into something I am no longer interested in. I feel right now that this is my last week to smoke. The cravings for them are becoming few and far between. I pray by the end of the week that I will be completely smoke-free. I am tired of feeling tired all the time, AND I know it is the effects from smoking.

Thank You Lord for continued support in my weightloss journey. Leaning on You has been what I've needed to help get me through it. I have a ways to go before I reach "my" goal weight. But knowing that I am doing this slowly, eating the right foods and asking You for support when I do slip up....It's been worth every bit of it.

My mother and I share a passion for food. Most times when we talk on the phone, we talk about recipes/food. Now that I have a printer, I've told her that I will be sending recipes to her in the mail that I've found online...She loves to cook, and if she likes what I send, then I in turn will make those recipes myself. I need to learn how to cook other things...experiment.

Thank You Lord for everything! Your shoulders have held a lot of my weight from crying on them these past few months, weeks and days. I cannot even begin to thank You enough for the peace of mind You have brought to me....The calmness You have restored in my soul...the sleep that comes so easily now, and the peace I feel when I lay my head down at night before going to sleep.

I LOVE YOU LORD! As I've said from the beginning when I started this "journey", all this I do, to HONOR YOU.

Daisy