Accountability:
I'm still staying accountable for my actions.
I have more joy because of this choice.
This is good. very good, I think.
Work:
Work has been difficult. I have feared for my job at the new place. I don't think this is just me anymore. The stress and strain of the earth and all the inhabitants. Japan, Libya, Afghanistan, Israel, and the US. My goodness we crumble as in our evil we feast upon each other for our own financial gain. Oh, what a terrible thing . . . I don't know how but I don't want any part of this ugliness, that I see. Where I work, I watched the administrative people tell us our 2nd shift differential will be cut. Our 3rd shift differential will remain the same, thankfully. The employees who have been with the company over the past year will receive a cost of living increase for hourly wages to their base pay; however, they lost some of the money when their differential was cut. I was affected somewhat, but not much. I don't receive a cost of living increase because I was not working for this company the year prior. As such, I only receive the 2nd shift differential cut. Wow!!!! what can I say? The administrative person who came to see us, apparently ended the conversation saying "it is what it is".
I am neither injured or upset. "It is what it is", but I am not helpless. I will be going back to the other place to obtain extra hours - maybe once or twice a week at most. I don't know how I will do all this but, I think God will take care of me. Well, really, I'm banking on God helping me. My body is getting older and doesn't bounce back if it has taken a beating through the shift. However, the work pays well, and it keeps a roof over our heads and food on the table.
My other friends, recently, responded that they keep 2 jobs also, just because of the stress and strain from the employers. I think some of us have decided that if we lose one place of employment, we can at least keep another job going until something more permanent comes around.
Marriage:
I think it is better. Don't know how to navigate some of the more painful areas of the marriage though.
Children:
Doing well.
Finances:
Messy. Very messy. More bills than money to pay. Will be cutting back on things here and there asap.
Relationship with God:
Last but certainly not least. This is improving. I am grateful to say this has improved. I will keep trying to make strides to get this part of my life to grow and develop well.
I need to go. I'm tired - work tonight. I'm not thoroughly downcast though. On the contrary, speaking about God and journaling the blessing here encourages me. I have had worries, I will probably still have them later. I have had a few panic attacks, will probably have those again later too. But, I have had my God, I will still have Him later too. And He will help me through the rest.