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Hello, Day 1
Hello everyone, This is my first day on here. I saw the 14 day process and am giving it a try. I dont usually reach out for help anymore but I can tell that it is effecting not just me but everyone around me. I feel so alone and I dont have anyone to talk to who wont judge me. To make this quick, Im am suffering from a lifetime of neglect, bullying, sadness and anger. I have never been close to anyone....ever. I feel like a balloon that someone let go and I just drift farther and farther away. I go for long periods of time without talking to family and friends. They all judge that's why I dont talk to them. I dont want to write a book on my troubled past but just to give you an idea, neglectful mother who left at a young age, father was a drinker and a bully, bullied at school b/c we were poor, got married&pregnant at 16. Im not a pitiful victim. Im not asking anyone to feel sorry for me. It's just that I have felt so alone for so long and I cant shake that feeling. I wish I had someone to talk to who could help me. All I ever hear is, get over it and move on and I have but it dosnt change the fact that Im hurting. I was never able to truly grieve the loss of my mother (still living but not around). I was never able to talk to anyone about how I feel. I was always told growing up that crying dosnt solve anything. To this day I cannot cry in front of people or when Im alone. I feel so lost. My life is not all bad though. I've been married for 9 years and I have a beautiful 8 yo daughter. I can look around me right now and I cant tell you one thing that I need that I dont already have. I am very blessed. I have come a very long way in my. God bless my husband for sticking with me all these years
. I really need to break down these walls before it starts effecting my releationship with my husband and daughter.

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driverl86 - Posts: 8
- Location: Here
- Marital Status: Married
Re: Hello, Day 1

So glad that you found your way here! A lot of us here can definately say we understand what it feels like to feel alone. You have come to a good place because there are lots of people who care, will pray with you and for you. I pray that you may find peace, healing and relationships here
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calebsmom77 - Posts: 39
- Location: illinois
- Marital Status: Divorced
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sbennett - Posts: 303
- Location: Texas
- Marital Status: Married
Re: Hello, Day 1

You have everything yet feel so empty?
I can relate.
I pray through this process you can build a closer relationship with the one who can not only break down those walls but can give you joy and peace beyond your understanding.
He's really good like that.


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Dora - Posts: 3759
- Location: In Gods Hands
- Marital Status: Married
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Thank you all so much. It's nice to know that there are caring people out there.
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driverl86 - Posts: 8
- Location: Here
- Marital Status: Married
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