Sexual Obsessions

[Worship Leader]

I was born with obsessive compulsive disorder and because of it I struggle with sexual obsessions which are obsessions with sex, and in the context of obsessive-compulsive disorder.

Obsessive-compulsive disorder involves obsessions unwanted thoughts or images that are unsettling or interfere with an individual's life, followed by compulsions  actions that temporarily relieve the anxiety caused by the obsessions (APA 2000). Obsessions are involuntary, repetitive, and unwelcome. Attempts to suppress or neutralise obsessions do not work and in fact make the obsessions more severe. OCD is considered an anxiety disorder.

So therefore, since I was a child I struggled with unwanted perverted sexual thoughts regarding the opposite gender a.k.a. sexual perversion spirit. For a long time I hated myself for it; beating myself up with shame, guilt, condemnation, oppression, depression, discouragement, confusion, doubt, fear, distraction and disappointment. Daily I am tormented with these thoughts and also in my sleep. I am reading the word of God, praying for the Lord to help me, heal me and deliver me from this unclean spirit.

I'm pleading the blood of Jesus Christ over my mind. I'm rebuking this unclean spirit in Jesus name and commanding it to go. However, I am still being tormented with these thoughts which causes me intense temptations of sexual urges a.k.a. self gratification. I don't know what is wrong with me. For a long time I cried in unbearable pain thinking I was alone in this and that I was not normal. I felt like people would reject me because of this mental struggle.

[Whisperingsprings]

welcome to sos joseph michael.

ocd is definitely challenging and my goodness to add that twist . . . oiye vey.

nonetheless, God can wonderfully replace one desire with another that is most assuredly more healthy.

I will pray that you too will find something to replace that focus with something more healthy. I'm going through something similar myself. I have an addiction that is slowly being replaced with exercise, work, and reading materials for work. I'm choosing to let the things I need to focus on be my focus. The option is focusing on stuff that isn't important and doesn't benefit anyone.

God can and does use replacement therapy for me. Also, don't forget to stay accountable to someone for your actions.

best wishes in all your endeavors and again welcome to sos.
whisp

[jeffidaho]

Blessings to you for being so candid and open. Most people would not even bring all that up for fear of man if you will. But we don't fear man.........right?

Fight it, pray, talk, RUN when tempted, Jesus will tell you before hand everytime but its a choice. God will replace that desire if you let him.

I have fought this battle and COMPLETELY understand.

Lord Jesus please give Joseph Michael strength in the time of weakness. Give him a WAY OUT, give him strength to run and seek Your will. In YOUR NAME JESUS I pray.