Difficutly Drawing

[angelbaby]

I have started to draw a picture of a memory. This is a memory I haven't talked about it. I thought that I could handle it on my own until this week when it became more intense and the emotion started coming to the surface. I know it has to come out, but I am terrified of the drawing. I am scared. I drew half of it. Then, I quit. I want to rip it up and forget about it. I do not want to go back there.

[angelbaby]

I lay here frustrated tonight. Well, I should say this morning. The memories are flooding my mind. It is 4 AM, and I have sat here for a long time trying to go sleep. It seems now having admitted that have the memories is making them harder to ignore. I just want them to leave me alone so that I can go to sleep. I mean seriously is not enough to have gone through it once. It is not enough to be sick in the part of the body that is the most trigger sensative. I just want to sleep. I mean is that really too much to ask for it to leave me alone.

[Tam]

Yes AngelBaby the memories hurt. BUt remember they are just that ....memories. You gotta get them in the light in order to heal. Darkness can not live in the light. YOU are doing so good sis. Keep pushing through that wall. Keep facing your giants. The reward of freedom you get in the end is well worth it.
You can do it...I believe in you!

[foreverHis]

My dear, I feel your pain, it is real, you want it to go away, but it will not....because your in spirit, you are longing to be free, i agree with Tam....even if the pain is screaming at you, do not turn back..but keep pressing through...like in child birth..there is pain..we have to keep going, and the end result is new life....and the pain is gone.....

yes as Tam said..you can do it...cry out to God and tell. Him.I cannot do this unless you give me the strength to do it..keep posting here my dear...Tam and I can support and pray for you until the daylight comes through the darkness.....