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[Cali]

I messed up. Again. I had been doing really well. Almost made it two whole weeks. And then boom! It snuck up on me. I don't even know how it happened. Well, that isn't true. I know exactly how it happened because I was there. I wish I could say that I didn't see it coming. But that isn't true either. I knew what he wanted the minute he called. And of course I gave it to him, because to say no is like detrimental to my health. At least in my head it is. I don't know how to fix this. Part of me even wonders if I want to fix this. And for that I'll spend the next 9.7 days hating myself and wondering if me devotion is true. I think the part afterward hurts even more than what he does to me. You want to know the really messed up part? I can't even cry about it anymore.

[mlg]

revanto, I think at times we know that what we are doing is not what God wants us to do...but the temptation is so overwhelming that we give in...knowing we will regret it later...

But you know what sis? God still forgives us...He still loves us...and He doesn't want us to be angry with ourselves...because He has already died so we could repent and be free of the fall we took. Being angry with yourself keeps you down sis...and that's where the enemy wants you to be...because when your down...he wins. I pray you can let go of the anger towards yourself and get back up and finish the race.

[xxJILLxx]

rev

its ok if we mess up, He already knew we were going to mess up and it never changed His love for us then and it wont change it after we mess up either.

He loves us so much, if temptation is a problem cut off the source of the temptation

Important thing is that u are getting back up and have that desire to change these things, dont give up on that sis..God sees your heart and He can and will bring you through this

praying for u

gb
♥Jill