Day 11
Posted: Tue May 06, 2008 12:11 am
Boy, I have a lot on my mind! I have been working on these counseling steps on and off. They are very helpful and encouraging. The last month a have taken brakes in between steps. As I have stated several times, I don't take brake from God. I continue in my daily walk with Him thru prayer and Bible reading. I plan on doing this 14 day counseling again,when i finish. When I do it again, I plan on doing it 14 days straight.
Were do I begin? Well, I couldn't sleep tonight, because I have lots on my mind. I decided to look at the next counseling step. Very good idea.
See, God has been very good to me and provided me with a job at McDonalds a few weeks ago. I have been really enjoying it,and starting to make some much needed money. This last Thurs. i fell, and have a small fracture in my elbow. I haven't been able to work the last couple of days. Today I went to see the orthopedic, and i can only work for the next two weeks with just my left arm and hand. This will be hard with the type of work i do. my manager hasn't got back to me with any info. they also don't seem to be very concerned about my well being, when I talk to them. i am having thoughts like i should be looking for another job. IDK.
I'm also, feeling i little sorry for myself for being helpless.I know i have a lot to be thankful for,cause it could of been a lot worse. it will take about 10 weeks to heal. i only have to wear hard brace for two weeks,then do physical therapy. todays study was very good as always. I've always felt close to the Holy Spirit,but it was a great reminder that He is here with me and the great comforter. I know when I have these doubts in my head,and feeling sorry for myself it is spiritual warfare. Thank you Jesus that the Holy Spirit is all powerful and rules over evil spirit.
I had another weed that needs pulling. i'll try not to go into details for God knows them. I stopped to visit my aunt that i hadn't seen in a long time.It seems when i see her or her daughter i end up leaving feeling ill feelings toward them. I have concluded that I can love them lots without liking them lots. I love and pray for them as I know they love and pray for me. It's weird because we used to be so close. I pray that I won't judge them for only God has the right to do that. I wonder if it's ok not to spend a lot of time with them if i don't like the way i feel after I'm with? If any has spiritual advise please feel free to give it. ty
well, that pretty much helps me get things off my mind. Please pray that i only listen to the Holy Spirit, and trust God with all my heart and know He has a plan and is in control. Amen
Were do I begin? Well, I couldn't sleep tonight, because I have lots on my mind. I decided to look at the next counseling step. Very good idea.
See, God has been very good to me and provided me with a job at McDonalds a few weeks ago. I have been really enjoying it,and starting to make some much needed money. This last Thurs. i fell, and have a small fracture in my elbow. I haven't been able to work the last couple of days. Today I went to see the orthopedic, and i can only work for the next two weeks with just my left arm and hand. This will be hard with the type of work i do. my manager hasn't got back to me with any info. they also don't seem to be very concerned about my well being, when I talk to them. i am having thoughts like i should be looking for another job. IDK.
I'm also, feeling i little sorry for myself for being helpless.I know i have a lot to be thankful for,cause it could of been a lot worse. it will take about 10 weeks to heal. i only have to wear hard brace for two weeks,then do physical therapy. todays study was very good as always. I've always felt close to the Holy Spirit,but it was a great reminder that He is here with me and the great comforter. I know when I have these doubts in my head,and feeling sorry for myself it is spiritual warfare. Thank you Jesus that the Holy Spirit is all powerful and rules over evil spirit.
I had another weed that needs pulling. i'll try not to go into details for God knows them. I stopped to visit my aunt that i hadn't seen in a long time.It seems when i see her or her daughter i end up leaving feeling ill feelings toward them. I have concluded that I can love them lots without liking them lots. I love and pray for them as I know they love and pray for me. It's weird because we used to be so close. I pray that I won't judge them for only God has the right to do that. I wonder if it's ok not to spend a lot of time with them if i don't like the way i feel after I'm with? If any has spiritual advise please feel free to give it. ty
well, that pretty much helps me get things off my mind. Please pray that i only listen to the Holy Spirit, and trust God with all my heart and know He has a plan and is in control. Amen