Old Thought Patterns
Posted: Sat Jan 12, 2008 11:29 am
I wanted to share this before I forget to. Since being diagnosed with MS
I find my mind is more and more forgetful. Good thing God is faithful!
For years I have battled with obsessive thoughts. I even have gone to therapy for it. They told me to think and concentrate on a stop sign. things
like that.
Since I did the counseling study here something has happened. This morning I had the old thought pattern come in my head. This is how it goes: I will have the thought that I said or did something wrong and someone is upset with me. I am not told what I did wrong. Just that I did something wrong. I obsess about this for days, sometimes weeks, sometimes longer. Finally when I do have contact with the person I have my guard up. This of course causes tension. The other person puts their guard up in defense. Pretty soon I have lost a friend. What started it??
NOTHING!!
Because I am not told exactly what I did, I can't go to the person and say "sorry for doing or saying this" Although that has been my escape in the past. I tell people that I am obsessing about hurting them, failing them, whatever. Almost always the person tells me there was nothing there. Nothing happened.
BUT this morning it started again. Something in the study - I think it was step 8, said to ask God for the truth. This is what I did this morning. The thought about asking God the truth popped into my head. So, I asked God for the truth. You know what He said? If there was something I would convict you. If the other person has something against you and hasn't talked to you about it, I will convict them. Let me handle it.
Let Him handle it!! How simple. But all this time I have spent so much of my time obsessing over something that wasn't even there I could not even think about asking the one who has all the answers!!
I want to thank Christianity Oasis for listening to God when He told him to write the Christian Counseling Study. It has helped me and today was proof of it.
God Bless You
Sylvia
I find my mind is more and more forgetful. Good thing God is faithful!
For years I have battled with obsessive thoughts. I even have gone to therapy for it. They told me to think and concentrate on a stop sign. things
like that.
Since I did the counseling study here something has happened. This morning I had the old thought pattern come in my head. This is how it goes: I will have the thought that I said or did something wrong and someone is upset with me. I am not told what I did wrong. Just that I did something wrong. I obsess about this for days, sometimes weeks, sometimes longer. Finally when I do have contact with the person I have my guard up. This of course causes tension. The other person puts their guard up in defense. Pretty soon I have lost a friend. What started it??
NOTHING!!
Because I am not told exactly what I did, I can't go to the person and say "sorry for doing or saying this" Although that has been my escape in the past. I tell people that I am obsessing about hurting them, failing them, whatever. Almost always the person tells me there was nothing there. Nothing happened.
BUT this morning it started again. Something in the study - I think it was step 8, said to ask God for the truth. This is what I did this morning. The thought about asking God the truth popped into my head. So, I asked God for the truth. You know what He said? If there was something I would convict you. If the other person has something against you and hasn't talked to you about it, I will convict them. Let me handle it.
Let Him handle it!! How simple. But all this time I have spent so much of my time obsessing over something that wasn't even there I could not even think about asking the one who has all the answers!!
I want to thank Christianity Oasis for listening to God when He told him to write the Christian Counseling Study. It has helped me and today was proof of it.
God Bless You
Sylvia