Day 1
Posted: Fri Dec 21, 2007 2:32 pmI 'm sitting here trying to figure out where to start . I'm chewing on a cough drop . I have been sick for a week and a half now . I had strep throat and a viral infection . The throat still hurts but no as much . I have a lot of stress on me right now . I lost my job in November . I still haven't found anything . I baby sit for a friend her son 2 days a week . He's 3 months old . He loves to cry he cries so much . Lucky my 15 month old daughter is easy , and quiet .
I' m fighting for custody of my 2 older daughters . There is problems with my ex' s nephew and girlfriend who live with them , And babysit them . My ex and his family have poisoned our 13 year old daughter's mind against me . She won't talk to me or come visit me . I' m suppose to have my daughters Tiffany and Casey one week and the ex is suppose to have them one week . My ex won't follow through with it . I just that we could work together to raise our beautiful daughters . Brings me to my oldest she needs a lot of prayer . she's full of anger . She hates school and won't even try . She skips all kinds of classes . she's not scared of getting in trouble . Her dad doesn't make her mind . That was one of our biggest problems in our marriage . I said no he said yes . I was always the bad guy . Tiffany takes care of her dad . She picks him up when he has a bad day at work . She comforts him when he cries . She helps take care of stuff and helps cook . She's suppose to be a child not her dad's keeper . He should be there for her . She lies all the time . It's hard to know when she's telling the truth . She's already had a few sips of alcohol . Her 18 year old cousin gave her some . I told her dad and he doesn't believe me . He wants to be her friend instead of being a parent . He doesn't want her to be mad at him . DSS is also involved , I called them on my ex because of the girls not bathing enough and his nephew He tried to untie Tiffany's bathing suit . I hope DSS is out of the picture soon . My husband is not crazy about Tiffany because she does rude things to him . He thinks Tiffany only comes around when she wants something . Even if that is true she's still my daughter and I love her . He thinks we have a daughter together I should just forget about my other 2 . Or put them on the back burner . They are my daughters I love them so much . My in laws tell me that my daughters are my second family . That I need to worry and take care of their son and the daughter I have with him ( their only grand daughter ) . They don't like Tiffany . All of this hurts me , stresses me out . I love my daughter so much , and Praise and thank the Lord for my girls he's entrusted me with . My husband and I have a lot of problems . He's an only child and still thinks the world revolves around him . No he's not saved . He uses all his money for himself . he does help pay the bills . When we get into a disagreement he calls his parents . His parents automatically take his side . They but in , I hate them . I'm sorry I know I need to let go of this hatred . Jesus please help me . His parents and I got into same big fights . When my husband and I got married my daughters were not invited . They were paying for the wedding and didn't want my girls to ruin their son's big day . I was heartbroken . They are in our business all the time . I don't want to fight with them so I say nothing . My husband knows I don't like when they get in the middle . when we have a fight . I worry what he is telling his parents and what they are going to say to me . We have been fighting a lot lately , been really depressed . He drinks a lot . he doesn't think he does . If he doesn't have a few beers for a few days he shakes . He drinks 6 - 12 a night . He knows it bothers me a little . His dad one time told me he has to drink he needs it . No one needs to drink . He plays video games . He spends so much money on video games and beer . There is so much more but I'll be here all day typing .
I' m fighting for custody of my 2 older daughters . There is problems with my ex' s nephew and girlfriend who live with them , And babysit them . My ex and his family have poisoned our 13 year old daughter's mind against me . She won't talk to me or come visit me . I' m suppose to have my daughters Tiffany and Casey one week and the ex is suppose to have them one week . My ex won't follow through with it . I just that we could work together to raise our beautiful daughters . Brings me to my oldest she needs a lot of prayer . she's full of anger . She hates school and won't even try . She skips all kinds of classes . she's not scared of getting in trouble . Her dad doesn't make her mind . That was one of our biggest problems in our marriage . I said no he said yes . I was always the bad guy . Tiffany takes care of her dad . She picks him up when he has a bad day at work . She comforts him when he cries . She helps take care of stuff and helps cook . She's suppose to be a child not her dad's keeper . He should be there for her . She lies all the time . It's hard to know when she's telling the truth . She's already had a few sips of alcohol . Her 18 year old cousin gave her some . I told her dad and he doesn't believe me . He wants to be her friend instead of being a parent . He doesn't want her to be mad at him . DSS is also involved , I called them on my ex because of the girls not bathing enough and his nephew He tried to untie Tiffany's bathing suit . I hope DSS is out of the picture soon . My husband is not crazy about Tiffany because she does rude things to him . He thinks Tiffany only comes around when she wants something . Even if that is true she's still my daughter and I love her . He thinks we have a daughter together I should just forget about my other 2 . Or put them on the back burner . They are my daughters I love them so much . My in laws tell me that my daughters are my second family . That I need to worry and take care of their son and the daughter I have with him ( their only grand daughter ) . They don't like Tiffany . All of this hurts me , stresses me out . I love my daughter so much , and Praise and thank the Lord for my girls he's entrusted me with . My husband and I have a lot of problems . He's an only child and still thinks the world revolves around him . No he's not saved . He uses all his money for himself . he does help pay the bills . When we get into a disagreement he calls his parents . His parents automatically take his side . They but in , I hate them . I'm sorry I know I need to let go of this hatred . Jesus please help me . His parents and I got into same big fights . When my husband and I got married my daughters were not invited . They were paying for the wedding and didn't want my girls to ruin their son's big day . I was heartbroken . They are in our business all the time . I don't want to fight with them so I say nothing . My husband knows I don't like when they get in the middle . when we have a fight . I worry what he is telling his parents and what they are going to say to me . We have been fighting a lot lately , been really depressed . He drinks a lot . he doesn't think he does . If he doesn't have a few beers for a few days he shakes . He drinks 6 - 12 a night . He knows it bothers me a little . His dad one time told me he has to drink he needs it . No one needs to drink . He plays video games . He spends so much money on video games and beer . There is so much more but I'll be here all day typing .