Journal day one
Posted: Wed Mar 11, 2015 8:14 am
I'm new at this, so my thoughts may be a bit scattered..
I guess I'll introduce myself.. My name is Abby (ntmu) and I'm newly accepting Jesus as my saviour and God into my life.
see, all my life I've had emotional issues. Mostly feelings of worthlessness which lead to anger. I'll add this now, I havent been
to a psychiatrist or psychologist for evaluation as I can't afford it or therapy. which is why I decided to start here.
I find myself having a real hard time letting go of past issues. Even things I know aren't my fault such as my Fathers suicide
I lash out at those I care about knowing it's nothing to really worry about.. all the anger I just want it gone..I don't want to hurt people. Growing up in a troubled home has definitely left a mark on me.. more like scars.. School was terrible most of the time.. bullied alot..and then bullied at home by older siblings.. well one anyway. These are all things I understand have impacted me as a person, and contributed to my issues with anger, sense of self worth, decisions I have made in life..
I'm ready to move on and leave it all behind, I'm having such a hard time leaving it behind me, and forgiving myself of sins God has forgivin me for. I often feel as though Satan is atracking me alot and I know he'll do anything to mess with my head and keep me from spiritual peace.
Any words of wisdom, or recommended Scripture to read would be greatly appreciated.
And I have a question for anyone who reads this.. How did you let go..just turn it all to God?
Thank You for taking the time to read this,
Abby
I guess I'll introduce myself.. My name is Abby (ntmu) and I'm newly accepting Jesus as my saviour and God into my life.
see, all my life I've had emotional issues. Mostly feelings of worthlessness which lead to anger. I'll add this now, I havent been
to a psychiatrist or psychologist for evaluation as I can't afford it or therapy. which is why I decided to start here.
I find myself having a real hard time letting go of past issues. Even things I know aren't my fault such as my Fathers suicide
I lash out at those I care about knowing it's nothing to really worry about.. all the anger I just want it gone..I don't want to hurt people. Growing up in a troubled home has definitely left a mark on me.. more like scars.. School was terrible most of the time.. bullied alot..and then bullied at home by older siblings.. well one anyway. These are all things I understand have impacted me as a person, and contributed to my issues with anger, sense of self worth, decisions I have made in life..
I'm ready to move on and leave it all behind, I'm having such a hard time leaving it behind me, and forgiving myself of sins God has forgivin me for. I often feel as though Satan is atracking me alot and I know he'll do anything to mess with my head and keep me from spiritual peace.
Any words of wisdom, or recommended Scripture to read would be greatly appreciated.
And I have a question for anyone who reads this.. How did you let go..just turn it all to God?
Thank You for taking the time to read this,
Abby