Ncarriera1110 Day 1
Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2015 9:43 pm
Well, This is my first time journaling on here. Step one said write your thought of that day and the origin of what's bothering me, so here it goes. I am going through a hard time in life for the millionth time, and My daughter, who I been kidda astranged from asked me to come stay with her. She went to live with her dad at 6 or 7 and is now 19. I seen her some during that time, but not a lot. I We really don't know each other that well, so I thought this would be a good thing. Since, I been her she hardly talks to me or takes interest in spending any time with me. I talked to her about it before, and It was ok a few days and now back the same. She had more to say in a txt and facebook. She told me then how she loved me often and how she wished I hadn't moved so far away for a while to Oregon from Texas. She said I should move back. So, I did and I am right here and she acts totally different. I feel like she doesn't want me here. I am just ready to get up and leave. Her bf and his dad live here too and when I walk in the room hardly anyone talks to me. I feel like an outsider and real uncomfortable. We even watch tv in separate living rooms, and I feel like its them and then me. I do appreciate she asked me to stay and is helping me in that way, but don't want to feel like she doesn't want me her. Maybe, I deserve this or its me. I feel I am being ungrateful also being upset. She shouldn't of had to help me to begin with. I feel guilt and shame about that. I couldn't take care of myself at the moment.