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As the holidays proceed in full swing I feel the annual rising sense of hopelessness. I hear some people live for the holiday "high." I don't relate. Holidays seem to amplify the loneliness, inadequacy, & loss.
I would be happy to let it pass with limited involvement, but I feel a responsibility to show my children and the world that the savior we honor at Christmas. I truly believe it, but I feel my holiday activities have little to do with that.
I miss my mom. I miss my grandma. I miss the look in my kids face when they wake up excited. I miss singing Christmas songs with my dad. I miss having a living room to decorate a tree. I miss thinking I can bake holiday treats and wrap presents. I miss thinking my dream guy will walk in with a meaningful gift to show me how much i mean to him.
In the midst of all this I know I'm not alone. We live in a sinful broken world. God is that good, and enduring is worth it. In the mean time Merry Christmas.

How odd. I posted earlier - or thought I did.

This time of year is hard for many people. It reminds you of what it was before. Brings up memories. Reminds you of the perfect holidays you think other people are having. It's hard.