Is it me or God? I need some help!
Posted: Sat Sep 07, 2013 9:52 pm
I know it is kind of long so thank you for helping!
So I went to a church last Easter that I didnt particularly like. It was a very old fashioned church which is not really my thing. After I left I felt like God wanted me to join the choir, but sometimes when I come up with an idea I dont like I psych myself out over it like maybe I should do it because I dont want to. I think I may have over analysed this thought and made it into something bigger than it was.
Anyways, I rarely think of it, and it has only nagged at me twice out of the few times I have thought of it. However, I was feeling anxiety today so when I thought of it it has nagged me more than usual.
I am so conflicted over it because I dont want to do it, and the thought of it makes me feel sick and I really did not enjoy that church or the thought of having to go to choir practice for their choir throughout the week. It is simply not something I want to do. Sometimes I feel like I need to do it and other times I feel like I'll be fine if I dont. I dont know the answer. I had a similar experiance when I was thinking about joining the army. I would sometimes feel like it was something God wanted me to do, but mostly I would feel like it was not for me. In this case I did want to join the army though so you can see I kind of make myself not do what I want to and do what I dont want to.
However, it has really bothered me this time! I read that as a last resort you should flip a coin to get God's answer which I did (twice just to double check haha) and both times it came out against joining the church. However, right before I was ready to flip it I dropped it and it came out pro going to the church. Do I over think things???
So I went to a church last Easter that I didnt particularly like. It was a very old fashioned church which is not really my thing. After I left I felt like God wanted me to join the choir, but sometimes when I come up with an idea I dont like I psych myself out over it like maybe I should do it because I dont want to. I think I may have over analysed this thought and made it into something bigger than it was.
Anyways, I rarely think of it, and it has only nagged at me twice out of the few times I have thought of it. However, I was feeling anxiety today so when I thought of it it has nagged me more than usual.
I am so conflicted over it because I dont want to do it, and the thought of it makes me feel sick and I really did not enjoy that church or the thought of having to go to choir practice for their choir throughout the week. It is simply not something I want to do. Sometimes I feel like I need to do it and other times I feel like I'll be fine if I dont. I dont know the answer. I had a similar experiance when I was thinking about joining the army. I would sometimes feel like it was something God wanted me to do, but mostly I would feel like it was not for me. In this case I did want to join the army though so you can see I kind of make myself not do what I want to and do what I dont want to.
However, it has really bothered me this time! I read that as a last resort you should flip a coin to get God's answer which I did (twice just to double check haha) and both times it came out against joining the church. However, right before I was ready to flip it I dropped it and it came out pro going to the church. Do I over think things???