Coming home - Day 1 Journal
Posted: Fri Aug 09, 2013 3:53 pm
Two weeks ago I returned home from helping to place my dad in a nursing home. I spent two weeks talking to nursing home administrators, lawyers, doctors and funeral home directors. Needless to say it was not the best time of my life.
My husband, who has basically withdrawn from our marriage, said he was glad to see me, gave me a slight hug and continued his playtime with his dogs. I was an emotional wreck and while I had talked to God during the 750 miles I had driven to get home, I was hoping there might be at least a little conversation; perhaps I was even looking for a little sympathy. We have been married almost 33 years, but for the most part of it have occupied separate bedrooms due to the fact that he likes to sleep with dogs in the bed and I do not, plus we have so little in common. He doesn't like to do the things I do, and I cannot, as a Christian, do the things he does. We were married at a time when I was not serving the Lord, and after I came back to God our marriage changed significantly.
He has no time for me. I am free to do as i wish, when I wish, etc., but there are times when the human touch would be so very welcome. This is not a new thing in our marriage, but this time it hurt more than it ever has.
I'm not sure this is what is expected on the Day 1 journal, but it is what's happening with me today.
My husband, who has basically withdrawn from our marriage, said he was glad to see me, gave me a slight hug and continued his playtime with his dogs. I was an emotional wreck and while I had talked to God during the 750 miles I had driven to get home, I was hoping there might be at least a little conversation; perhaps I was even looking for a little sympathy. We have been married almost 33 years, but for the most part of it have occupied separate bedrooms due to the fact that he likes to sleep with dogs in the bed and I do not, plus we have so little in common. He doesn't like to do the things I do, and I cannot, as a Christian, do the things he does. We were married at a time when I was not serving the Lord, and after I came back to God our marriage changed significantly.
He has no time for me. I am free to do as i wish, when I wish, etc., but there are times when the human touch would be so very welcome. This is not a new thing in our marriage, but this time it hurt more than it ever has.
I'm not sure this is what is expected on the Day 1 journal, but it is what's happening with me today.