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Hello I am choosing to post my journal online Im hoping this program helps.I am so confused about so many things ive been praying alot but i dont seem to see the answer. I do not know if i dont want to see it or what.I am divorced I have 5 kids by my ex my life is kinda out a control. My kids are all in counseling and have behavior problems some of them have even said they are atheists.I have been in counseling for a year now.I have been sober for 10 months.I also have Major Depression and Panic disorders I am taking Medication.My problem is i get so overwhelmed with my thoughts and try to fix so many things at once and try to do everything then i just fall and give up.I cant seem to think clearly sometimes i cant even pray cuz i cant get my thoughts together to talk to god.I Have been living with a man for almost 4 years and im not sure if we should get married.We have had alot of problems my counseler thinks we are in an unhealthy relationship and that he is bad but we are both in recovery and are getting along ok and have forgiven each other for the past.I wonder if we should be married because i got a divorce i asked god to forgive me for that my divorce was a result of mutual affairs and addiction i have also asked my x for forgivness and we get along well. He has never remarried but has had relations with other women and has been in a long term relationship with a married woman.He never wanted the divorce.I was also still legally married when i got into the relationship im in now so thats why i wonder if god would recognize my 2nd marriage. I have been struggling with this for awhile.I want to be a good christian and a good example and a good mom.Theres so many areas in my life that are out of tune i try to fix it all at once dont know where to start.

Hello Momof5

God bless you this day and welcome to Christianity Oasis. I'm glad The Lord led you here and that you have begun reading the 14 Day Christian Counseling Study (CCCC).

Congratulations on being sober for 10 months. Thank You Lord for helping Momof5.

Momof5, there are many of us that get overwhelmed by our thoughts, and sadly most of us were not taught how to stop those negative thought patterns. The study will help you, because it is based on the Word of God and is inspired by The Holy Spirit. Many souls, just as yourself, have benefited greatly by the study (myself included) because it helps guide us into a deeper relationship with our Lord and His Word. Jesus Christ loves you, Momof5, and He, The Lord, has a plan for your life, so getting to know Him is the very best thing you can do for yourself.

As a child of God, you are God's betrothed. Pretty Awesome, huh? So, perhaps instead on focusing right now on whether or not you should marry the man you are in a relationship with, how about focusing on your relationship with The Lord, because He and He alone knows what is best for you in every area of your life.

I encourage you to continue reading the Study, and fully embracing the scriptures (the Bible scriptures) within each Stepping Stone of the CCCC Study. The scriptures are God's Word and God's Word is Truth and the Truth will set you free.

I'm sending up prayers to our Lord in the name of Jesus on your behalf, Momof5. May God's blessed will be done.

God bless and keep you, Momof5.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack

Thanks for the encouraging words i am embracing this program and trying to quiet my mind and focus thanks again!!!