Meaning of life
Posted: Tue Apr 23, 2013 10:26 pm
Hi everyone, I'm sorry to bother everyone again but I kinda of count you guys as family.
Well I really hate days like this. I'm sitting here looking at jobs that pay minumim wage and hours that no one wants to work. After years of working at a job I would have like to have retired from disappearing practically over night. I'm sitting here thinking what is there to life. Not only do I have employment and financial problems but I have even worse issues besides that. Those issues I'm really not able to talk about. All I can do is just pray,pray and more prayer and then leave it in Gods hands and read the Bible.
Not that I want to be a downer to everyone but, I look around my house and see stuff that I have accumulated over the years and for what? Maybe it is a spiritual awakening from all these problems I am facing, I don't know. But everything I see is junk to me. I can't believe the stuff I have bought over the years that was a total waste of money. I could just kick myself for not being wiser with my money. Now since I am older and facing the problems I have ahead of me I just want to clean house and get rid of everything. It is almost like cleaning out your soul. Sometimes I look at my son that has a 1 bedroom apartment and just the main necessities of life and think " ok that's how we all should be living". I think it is great if you are making $50,000 a year or more but that could all go away tomorrow. Not that I ever made that kinda of money I'm just using that as a round figure.
So here I am slowly cleaning out my house, facing major issues in my life, having issues with fear and deppresion and wondering is this all there is to our lives? Maybe it is just me and not really seeing much of a future for myself. I have no education and the only jobs I have had I kept for years so I didn't get a lot of experience bouncing from job to job. Which back in my day business owners appreciated because you were reliable and trustworthy. Now days it seems like the more you move around the better? Go figure. Now with the changes that the goverment is making a lot of employers won't hire full time employees anymore. Now I'm really starting to get off the subject, sorry.
MY ADVICE:
If you are reading this and you are in your 20's or 30's please listen and try to keep a simple life. Buy a house that you can double up your payments on. Don't over buy on anything, don't buy a car where you can only barely make the payments. Buy a nice used car you can pay off quickly. Don't get a bunch of charge cards only one or two for emergencies. PAY CASH if you can it is the safest way. If you are married love and be devoted to each other. When you are in trouble the one person that can truly be your strength and your pillar " besides God " is your spouse, I know mine has been. Even though I have done some really stupid things " I mean really stupid " she is always there. Not getting after me or yelling at me but being understanding and listening to me. She loves it when I get on here it gives her a break from me talking her ear off.
Don't make the mistake like I did, listen to your elders. We do know what we are talking about.
Well I didn't mean to go off on a rant like that but I have this hurting feeling deep in my spirit and soul. I'm not sure what life has in store for me and I truly hope and pray that God can fix all these problems in my life, " I know he can". I would love for everything to go back to being normal and I can have hope for the future. You guys have always been supportive and I hope you don't mind me getting on here and just cutting loose sometimes. For me it is therapy to sit here and type out my thoughts.
Just as a side note: if you have a business and need a great employee and you pay $50,000 a year call me. I'm your guy .
Don't we all wish it was that easy!
May God Bless each of you,
Well I really hate days like this. I'm sitting here looking at jobs that pay minumim wage and hours that no one wants to work. After years of working at a job I would have like to have retired from disappearing practically over night. I'm sitting here thinking what is there to life. Not only do I have employment and financial problems but I have even worse issues besides that. Those issues I'm really not able to talk about. All I can do is just pray,pray and more prayer and then leave it in Gods hands and read the Bible.
Not that I want to be a downer to everyone but, I look around my house and see stuff that I have accumulated over the years and for what? Maybe it is a spiritual awakening from all these problems I am facing, I don't know. But everything I see is junk to me. I can't believe the stuff I have bought over the years that was a total waste of money. I could just kick myself for not being wiser with my money. Now since I am older and facing the problems I have ahead of me I just want to clean house and get rid of everything. It is almost like cleaning out your soul. Sometimes I look at my son that has a 1 bedroom apartment and just the main necessities of life and think " ok that's how we all should be living". I think it is great if you are making $50,000 a year or more but that could all go away tomorrow. Not that I ever made that kinda of money I'm just using that as a round figure.
So here I am slowly cleaning out my house, facing major issues in my life, having issues with fear and deppresion and wondering is this all there is to our lives? Maybe it is just me and not really seeing much of a future for myself. I have no education and the only jobs I have had I kept for years so I didn't get a lot of experience bouncing from job to job. Which back in my day business owners appreciated because you were reliable and trustworthy. Now days it seems like the more you move around the better? Go figure. Now with the changes that the goverment is making a lot of employers won't hire full time employees anymore. Now I'm really starting to get off the subject, sorry.
MY ADVICE:
If you are reading this and you are in your 20's or 30's please listen and try to keep a simple life. Buy a house that you can double up your payments on. Don't over buy on anything, don't buy a car where you can only barely make the payments. Buy a nice used car you can pay off quickly. Don't get a bunch of charge cards only one or two for emergencies. PAY CASH if you can it is the safest way. If you are married love and be devoted to each other. When you are in trouble the one person that can truly be your strength and your pillar " besides God " is your spouse, I know mine has been. Even though I have done some really stupid things " I mean really stupid " she is always there. Not getting after me or yelling at me but being understanding and listening to me. She loves it when I get on here it gives her a break from me talking her ear off.
Don't make the mistake like I did, listen to your elders. We do know what we are talking about.
Well I didn't mean to go off on a rant like that but I have this hurting feeling deep in my spirit and soul. I'm not sure what life has in store for me and I truly hope and pray that God can fix all these problems in my life, " I know he can". I would love for everything to go back to being normal and I can have hope for the future. You guys have always been supportive and I hope you don't mind me getting on here and just cutting loose sometimes. For me it is therapy to sit here and type out my thoughts.
Just as a side note: if you have a business and need a great employee and you pay $50,000 a year call me. I'm your guy .
Don't we all wish it was that easy!
May God Bless each of you,