HERE I AM
Posted: Sun Dec 16, 2012 12:09 pm
OH GOD I FIND IT HARD TO PUT INTO WORDS ALL MY MIXED EMOTIONS. I AM STRUGGLING WITH ADDICTION AND I AN SEEKING FOR HELP , GUIDENCE, MOTIVATION ANYTHING THAT WOULD HELP ME GET OUT OF THIS MISERY. AS OF YESTERDAY I STARTED SEEKING HELP , SEARCHING THE WEB FOR ANYTHING THAT WOULD HELP ME. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE . I AM TIRED OF HIDING MY SELF FROM THE WORLD. I WANT TO GIVE MY SON THE ATTENTION HE DESERVES. I WANT TO HAVE PEACE IN MY HEART... I PRAYED TO GOD CRYING LIKE A BABY TO PLEASE HELP ME FIND THE SOLUTION TO MY PROBLEM... AT TIMES I FEEL LIKE HE CANT HEAR ME... OR I FEEL CORNY , STUPID CRYING AND PRAYING OUT LOUD.. THIS IS NOT EASY !! TODAY I AM DETERMINED TO NOT USE. SOBRIETY SEEMS SO FAR AWAY.... GOD HELP ME DO THIS. PUT IN MY PATH THE PEOPLE THAT WILL HELP ME , AND PLEASE KEEP AWAY THE ONES THAT HURT ME .... ITS TIME TO START MY DAY ....