Trying to get Right w/ God. Day 7
Posted: Thu Nov 08, 2012 1:39 amGod is real. Quite often, I'm challenged on the reality of God. Many may say, "I'll believe in God when I see a burning bush, when I see a man walking on water, when I land my dream job, when I win the lotto, or when my prayer is realized." I'm beginning to sense that the problem with that thought is that we may be fixing our eyes on the wrong target expecting God to be at bull's eye.
I learned how off tangent I have been thinking that I can be a Christian without Christ. I thought I can physically play the role but maintain my thoughts of doubt and bitterness because that defines me. (Why did I live in doubt? Don't ask.)
His grace is abundant. Today I was full of joy in the Spirit. Then doubt and worry tried to trickle in. Stupid. I recall during my collegiate years, I rededicated myself to God. I felt in awe of the Spirit just like today. I pictured a graph in my head that best fit my response to the joy of the Lord. The trajectory of the line was streaming upwards. My streamline of consciousness lead me to think about the spiritual leaders here (you know who you are). I started to worry. If they have experienced what I'm going through right now, is their joy of the Lord diminishing. Will this Joy fade away like it did for me during my lost years? Uh-oh, I owe them so much. They've been praying for me. Doubt and Fear kicked in. Will mine diminish as well? Then the Holy Spirit interjected and ejected the doubt reminding my Soul that the grace of God is abundant that was paid by the cross. 2 Corinthians 4:16b "The inward man is renewed day by day." God is real. His work is not over. Thank you.
I learned how off tangent I have been thinking that I can be a Christian without Christ. I thought I can physically play the role but maintain my thoughts of doubt and bitterness because that defines me. (Why did I live in doubt? Don't ask.)
His grace is abundant. Today I was full of joy in the Spirit. Then doubt and worry tried to trickle in. Stupid. I recall during my collegiate years, I rededicated myself to God. I felt in awe of the Spirit just like today. I pictured a graph in my head that best fit my response to the joy of the Lord. The trajectory of the line was streaming upwards. My streamline of consciousness lead me to think about the spiritual leaders here (you know who you are). I started to worry. If they have experienced what I'm going through right now, is their joy of the Lord diminishing. Will this Joy fade away like it did for me during my lost years? Uh-oh, I owe them so much. They've been praying for me. Doubt and Fear kicked in. Will mine diminish as well? Then the Holy Spirit interjected and ejected the doubt reminding my Soul that the grace of God is abundant that was paid by the cross. 2 Corinthians 4:16b "The inward man is renewed day by day." God is real. His work is not over. Thank you.