Day two
Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2012 12:31 am
Today was a particulary one of the harder days. I feel so overwhelmed with emotion that I broke down crying a few times today. It is always difficult to hear the person you love, the one you are fighting for tell you they don't love you and in their heart is another woman. I know when my husband speaks he is under Satan's spell but it is still hurtful to hear. As I heard my husband speak hurtful words It began to be clear to me how lost he really is, and how the enemy has twisted God's word and convince him that what he is doing is right. I am working on myself and my relationship with the lord, and I had to fight my human instincts and take a deep breath, pray and t then speak and I am so truely thankful for that! Quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry is what I had to say to myself to keep from blowing up. I have to confess that I felt very angry and resentful against my husband and I have asked forgiveness. I was angry at the fact that he speaks to me with so much anger and it upsets me because I am not the one who has chosen to quit! I have let go of that and released it to God, let the lord hold us accountable for our actions. Day two was harder than the first but I am standing firm on God's promises.