It's been awhile
Posted: Thu Sep 20, 2012 4:08 pmSo much has changed sense my 1st Journal entry. I don't know where to begin.
I came on here 2 months ago in desperation to find help in my marriage. Which turned into something way more then that. I found Jesus. On day one of this program I didn't know what I was beginning. I will be honest, all I wanted was help on saving my dead marriage. When I was writing my 1st entry I stated that after reading step 1, I began to say, "I'm done, I'm done"! Looking back and remembering that feeling, knowing what I know now, and how I feel for our Lord. I know that it was the Almighty reaching down to me, laying his hands upon me and whispering so beautifully, "its time," stop living my sinful life and walk with him, that he and only he will show me the way. Although I did not deserve such, he gave it to me with open arms. My husband is stilling wanting to move forward with this divorce, I filed a few days ago...it was me that filed because I didn't want my husband to have to bare anymore heart ache. Now we are in the 90 day waiting period that the state places in between filing for divorce, and setting your court date for it to be finalized, they do this in case you change your mind and no longer want to go through with your divorce.
I have gained a lot from this website, the brothers and sisters of this website, and most of all I have gained everything from the Lord...and NEW LIFE, restored in his hands. I will continue to live my life for him, forever, unconditionally, faithfully, and eternally! [youtube]http://youtu.be/99vh33nDSrs[/youtube] I know that no matter where life takes me I will be at peace because it is The Lord that has taken me there, and he knows whats best for me, and has a beautiful plan for my life, my husbands life, and our son.
I know that a lot of people might feel as if standing for my marriage isn't the best thing to do, but I will have to disagree, and kindly put into words why I feel this way.
I have broken so many promises, and this is a promise I intend to keep. "Till death do us part" Regardless of my circumstances I have faith that God will restore our marriage when he sees fit, just like he has restored my life, and breathed a new life inside me. With God all things are possible. But I have let go of my husband, I burned away all my selfishness, went forward with what he has been wanting... and I have placed our marriage (just like my life) into the hands of the Lord, "please Lord do with it what you desire"
Over the course of just 2 months I have gained a new relationship with my husband, he talks to me often, he no longer is harsh to me, we laugh together with our son, we share moments, and family time together, his anger towards me is very minimum now, he recently let me pick up our son from day care and meet the ladies who run the day care inside there home, him and I and our son attend church every Sunday night together. I just can't tell you how blessed I am and how wonderful the Lord is... Its amazing, its beautiful. Although my husband and I aren't together, and the other woman is still in his life, I am still happy at what has become of our relationship sense 2 months ago. Like I have said above I have let go of my husband, but I have gained the most beautiful faithful husband, The Lord! I will forever stand for my marriage because I can not see my life with anyone but The Lord and my husband, so for now I will continue to stay faithful and love my Savior unconditionally!
GOD IS GOOD!!!
I also have regained a new relationship with my brother and gained a new relationship with his fiance, and my niece! Last weekend my brother had called and asked me to watch my niece which was a miracle...before that phone call I had only met my niece once and was not apart of my brothers life. My son and I went over and watched my niece and then afterwards hung out with my brother and his fiance...Man o Man was that such a beautiful miracle placed upon my life by the Lord. Hallelujah!
Thank you Christianity Oasis, and thank you Jesus!
I came on here 2 months ago in desperation to find help in my marriage. Which turned into something way more then that. I found Jesus. On day one of this program I didn't know what I was beginning. I will be honest, all I wanted was help on saving my dead marriage. When I was writing my 1st entry I stated that after reading step 1, I began to say, "I'm done, I'm done"! Looking back and remembering that feeling, knowing what I know now, and how I feel for our Lord. I know that it was the Almighty reaching down to me, laying his hands upon me and whispering so beautifully, "its time," stop living my sinful life and walk with him, that he and only he will show me the way. Although I did not deserve such, he gave it to me with open arms. My husband is stilling wanting to move forward with this divorce, I filed a few days ago...it was me that filed because I didn't want my husband to have to bare anymore heart ache. Now we are in the 90 day waiting period that the state places in between filing for divorce, and setting your court date for it to be finalized, they do this in case you change your mind and no longer want to go through with your divorce.
I have gained a lot from this website, the brothers and sisters of this website, and most of all I have gained everything from the Lord...and NEW LIFE, restored in his hands. I will continue to live my life for him, forever, unconditionally, faithfully, and eternally! [youtube]http://youtu.be/99vh33nDSrs[/youtube] I know that no matter where life takes me I will be at peace because it is The Lord that has taken me there, and he knows whats best for me, and has a beautiful plan for my life, my husbands life, and our son.
I know that a lot of people might feel as if standing for my marriage isn't the best thing to do, but I will have to disagree, and kindly put into words why I feel this way.
I have broken so many promises, and this is a promise I intend to keep. "Till death do us part" Regardless of my circumstances I have faith that God will restore our marriage when he sees fit, just like he has restored my life, and breathed a new life inside me. With God all things are possible. But I have let go of my husband, I burned away all my selfishness, went forward with what he has been wanting... and I have placed our marriage (just like my life) into the hands of the Lord, "please Lord do with it what you desire"
Over the course of just 2 months I have gained a new relationship with my husband, he talks to me often, he no longer is harsh to me, we laugh together with our son, we share moments, and family time together, his anger towards me is very minimum now, he recently let me pick up our son from day care and meet the ladies who run the day care inside there home, him and I and our son attend church every Sunday night together. I just can't tell you how blessed I am and how wonderful the Lord is... Its amazing, its beautiful. Although my husband and I aren't together, and the other woman is still in his life, I am still happy at what has become of our relationship sense 2 months ago. Like I have said above I have let go of my husband, but I have gained the most beautiful faithful husband, The Lord! I will forever stand for my marriage because I can not see my life with anyone but The Lord and my husband, so for now I will continue to stay faithful and love my Savior unconditionally!
GOD IS GOOD!!!
I also have regained a new relationship with my brother and gained a new relationship with his fiance, and my niece! Last weekend my brother had called and asked me to watch my niece which was a miracle...before that phone call I had only met my niece once and was not apart of my brothers life. My son and I went over and watched my niece and then afterwards hung out with my brother and his fiance...Man o Man was that such a beautiful miracle placed upon my life by the Lord. Hallelujah!
Thank you Christianity Oasis, and thank you Jesus!
