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[Chasingcars4life]

Confession:
I have been feeling so uplifted and spirituality enlightened. Last night before I rested my head... I wrote my brothers girlfriend explaining to her that I was putting the blame on her because I was ashamed of my actions and could not take responsibility for my own actions and that I was sorry for lashing out on her and would like nothing more than her forgiveness. It felt good...and I felt the Lord working through me.

Today after reading the 8th stepping stone... I feel like I have taken a step backwards do to my feeling of fear...
Fear that my tribulation to prove myself to the Lord will be when my husband presents me with Divorce papers.
I have fear that I will brake... I will give up... I am sorry! I dont want that!!

Paul is right...What I do not want to do, I do! I pray that the Lord gives me strength to not do what I dont want to do....PATIENCE!!!!

BUT ITS SO HARD

[Christnundrconstruxn]

Dear Chasing,

I know exactly what you are feeling as I am in that process right now, But I pray you are able to put it in Gods hands if that is the way it is to be then please be patient with God and know He has a plan

I made the mistake of wasting alomost 3 years sulking and feeling as if I was a failure and I would never be happy
and felt very distant from God, But that is all changing....thanks to Him
I blamed myself for it all, the losing TWO houses, a campsite getaway my father bought, my failed marriage and so much more than I cannot mention, but the point it was NOT just me it was US and it takes BOTH to make any of this to work
I have come to the realization that while yes I failed.....I only failed MY part, I'm not the whole reason.
I just found out my ex (separated almost 3 years) is now dating someone and is doing the papers for divorce, talk about sting BUT at the same time it means closure, it means I am allowed to move on, and as me and one of our sisters here was dicussing I then will no longer have a guilty feeling of me finding someone new and continuing the rest of my life with her
So sometimes even when you feel it is bad, as the old saying goes theres always a silver lining in every cloud
Just keep your eye on God and your faith in Him that He is working for what is best for you

Please sis do not allow the devil to get in your mind and that is exactly what he is trying right now....why because...

I have been feeling so uplifted and spirituality enlightened. Last night before I rested my head... I wrote my brothers girlfriend explaining to her that I was putting the blame on her because I was ashamed of my actions and could not take responsibility for my own actions and that I was sorry for lashing out on her and would like nothing more than her forgiveness. It felt good...and I felt the Lord working through me.

Your scaring him

BUT ITS SO HARD

nothing worth having is easy.....except God's forgiveness it was already freely given to you
Hang on to the Lord tight and tell satan to BACK OFF!!
God bless sis
Cuc

[Chasingcars4life]

I thank you for your reply. After much praying I am feeling much better now. But phrase know this... May we all handle things in a different.. I wont move on from my husband. For we were promised as to b one flesh, I have put alot of pain on my hus husband and for that if he is happy than so shall I, THAT IS HOW I FOUND MY PEACE. But.... I will stand for my marriage.. ForEver

[Christnundrconstruxn]

I respect your choice and was only saying I felt the same for some or even most of the 3 years
from the promise to the pain to the wanting her to be happy.
I pray God's healing in your marriage and life as to His will
If more would stand and fight for the marriage then divorce would be a whole lot less
God bless and prayers being said

[vahn]

Hello

When I make a mistake , I had learnt that , no matter what the consequenses of my mistake were , I have absolutely no control over them . For example ; When I mistakenly end up putting my hand on a hot stove , I have absolutely no control over the burning of it ... it will burn . Period .
But , what I DO have control over , is , my willingness and the taking of action(s) to rectify my mistake , NOT the consequence . And I need to give it my absolute 100% of trying to right any wrong ... the outcome ? ... is in His Hands , not mine .

You're on the right track sister , keep pushing for the right thing .


Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord
vahn