Stepping Stone #5
Posted: Thu Jul 12, 2012 4:13 pmI just finished stepping stone #5. It took me on a few "field trips" and I learned a lot. I went through also, anger, depression and willful sin studies. There are more I need and want to go through but I stopped there for today. The biggest problem I have is anger. Sinning in anger and forgiveness in that is what I am focusing on today. I have much to forgive and much to be forgiven for.
I prayed before I started my path today, that God would soften my heart and prepare to hear His Truth and that I allow His Truth to change me. I wrote my oldest son a text and apologized for seeking vengence myself for a wrong I had felt he and my husband committed against me. I will do the same for my husband when I am done journaling here.
Last night I took the first step since starting the Healing Path to approaching my husband with and for forgiveness. He did not acknowledge it but that was OK. I prayed for him and for my family. I asked God to bless them and forgive me for being angry, prideful and filled with wrath against them.
I didn't realize that selfishness and pride were at the root of my anger. And I have let my anger direct my actions for a very long time. Its been a big ugly mess.
I am now learning and working to forgive and remove that bitter anger from my heart so I can be free and free my husband and my family from the curse that I placed on them through my anger.
What an amazing study step 5 took me on today. I feel truly blessed by God to know His Truth and that He will give me His Holy Spirit to turn what satan has meant for evil into the blessing and good that God intended for me as His child.
I do not know yet where my personal situation will end up but I am sure that I will end up right where God would have me in the end. So praise be to Him who led me here to this blessed and wonderful website where His Truth is proclaimed.
God bless all of those on the journey here with me and those that have taken it before me. I feel so very blessed to be among your company.
I am going to rest in what God has said in His Word and rejoice in what He is working out in my heart through it!
I prayed before I started my path today, that God would soften my heart and prepare to hear His Truth and that I allow His Truth to change me. I wrote my oldest son a text and apologized for seeking vengence myself for a wrong I had felt he and my husband committed against me. I will do the same for my husband when I am done journaling here.
Last night I took the first step since starting the Healing Path to approaching my husband with and for forgiveness. He did not acknowledge it but that was OK. I prayed for him and for my family. I asked God to bless them and forgive me for being angry, prideful and filled with wrath against them.
I didn't realize that selfishness and pride were at the root of my anger. And I have let my anger direct my actions for a very long time. Its been a big ugly mess.
I am now learning and working to forgive and remove that bitter anger from my heart so I can be free and free my husband and my family from the curse that I placed on them through my anger.
What an amazing study step 5 took me on today. I feel truly blessed by God to know His Truth and that He will give me His Holy Spirit to turn what satan has meant for evil into the blessing and good that God intended for me as His child.
I do not know yet where my personal situation will end up but I am sure that I will end up right where God would have me in the end. So praise be to Him who led me here to this blessed and wonderful website where His Truth is proclaimed.
God bless all of those on the journey here with me and those that have taken it before me. I feel so very blessed to be among your company.
I am going to rest in what God has said in His Word and rejoice in what He is working out in my heart through it!