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Thank you for the prayers. Soon after I sent that post, I got a text from an ex- girlfriend. Strike that, a friend. She is working at the church for Pacific Camps- a before and after school day camp... The text read "The door was locked... Bye" I met her at her car and we talked a little. I told her I was still 'fighting' to heal my life. Although I feel like I am losing the fight. I told her about some of my recent misadventures lately, how I didn't feel like I had nothing to offer in a relationship- she stopped me there, telling me I do, I just wasn't ready for a relationship. She has been trying to talk me into a program called Desert Streams, to assist in relational and sexual brokenness, among 'other things, oh for a year now. I lack confidence, I'm co dependent, the list goes on and on. Would be a great program, as I would really like to have a relationship with someone, and especially with the Lord. I have such a struggle with prayer and reading the word. I know I need to concentrate more, it doesn't stick- it doesn't always show and fail at keeping on the right path. I want to do what the Bible commands out of love, not fear. Difficult to do things out of love instead of fear. I grew up with alot of fear. Fear that I would get in trouble, fear I would be punished, fear of rejection. I don't remember much for love. My version of love... I cannot say. I will say that I am a mess. I struggle with my purity- same as JohnR. I smoke heavily- I am trying to limit the number every day. I came out of a past of heavy alcohol and drug abuse. I have been clean for 7 years and it has been a year since I have had any large amounts of alcohol. Haven't had a drink in months. So maybe some prayers for that healing would be good. Don't get me wrong. I am praying for you too. Jesus I pray you heal us all, not by our works by by Your healing touch. Thank you that you have provided me friends here that know my hurts, and that I know theirs. Forgive me of my sins. Lord show me how to glorify you and take my desires for selfish fulfillment away. Lord show me your love and how to love others. I want to be yours and understand...
Amen

I get the same worthless feelings & they are not of God but of Satan. He wants us defeated so that we can't be of service to God, to each other, or to ourselves. It is so cool that you know how to run a sound board, think about that. I think your awesome, think about that. Point being you mean a lot to me & I'm sure a lot of other people too (especially here). I PM my phone number to you, give me a call tomorrow, I'd love to talk to in person. I'm also a little jealous not only do you know how to do sound but you live in the one place I've always wanted to go, California!

God Bless

It is Satan who condemns. Jesus died to make you white as snow. God is love. The first commandment is love. The second commandment is love. The first is Love God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and the second is love your neighbor as yourself. Now, if you were the devil and against God, where would you put your time and effort? Doesn't it make sense that he would try the hardest to keep you from loving yourself, because then you can't love your neighbor as yourself?

God is love and we find him in peace. Try to find minutes of love and peace. Notice when you find them. And try to increase them. Notice when you do something nice, think something nice...... Try to read a few words about God and love - good words, positive words.

Baby steps will get you there.