Day 8 a Couple of Days Late
Posted: Sat Jun 09, 2012 12:31 amOh, I've really been blessed by this program. I got the Miracle Grow chart done, still doing alot of 'weeding' and am making a list of all the things that I need to forgive myself and others for. I have quite a list, I am praying over each one. I am also making a list of good that I've done, ammunition when the enemy comes. Trials and tribulations. I've had some past experience on this subject. The last couple of days have been full of little trials but also some great victories. Hasn't been easy! I haven't had much of a good relationship with my nephew, who is now 12, over the last year( I have the nick- name "Uncle- dad" - his dad isn't around, you can imagine). Tuesday he had an awards ceremony I couldn't attend because I was managing sound for 2 events at the church and wanted to go to a bible study, time didn't permit (45 minute drive one way). Family wasn't happy. I had planned to call the next day to congratulate him, I did that went well. The next day as I was leaving the house, he was being dropped off by my sister. We talked for a minute and he put his arm up to hug me, first time in a while I felt comfortable giving him a hug. It was nice. The last 2 days were full of little nightmares and I was really busy. Yesterday I got to the church and decided to fix the leather on the center console of my truck, which came unglued. So I was trying to stretch the leather by heating it with lamp. Was doing this, gluing, clamping it a little at a time and would go do other work. It got too hot and tore the leather. Doesn't sound so bad but I was trying to do 5 things at once, had a slight migraine (yup I'm one of the blessed 5% of the male population) and the day was just not going well, I was so far behind on the list of to- do's. I was so fed up with the day going so bad I got into my truck for a drive(wanted to keep going). In came the voices, 'you can't get anything right! That's why you got fired from your job, you can't fix a simple thing on an automobile...' I began to pray, and I had a peace- I thought "that's not true, I fixed many vehicles over the 20 years and did an excellent job". God brought to remembrance many of the things I have done that were good. Had a bad day today again,Had only about 3 hours sleep, kept having those nightmares. Setting up a fish tank (salt water) in the foyer- Pastor got himself a new tank in the foyer, helping my friend do some plumbing on it, I cracked a housing on a pump we were waiting 2 weeks for. Great! I was having other issues when one of the ladies from the office came walking in, and gave me a smile, handed me a Thank You card. I opened it, read it and enclosed was a gift card for Jamba Juice. A $50 card! It was for doing sound, lights, video and recording for the ladies bible study. More of a story to that, another time... Also when I was alone and in the thick of the funk I was in, Beautiful by Mercy Me came on Pandora,
Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much
Thank you my friends, this is good.
Days will come when you don't have the strength
And all you hear is you're not worth anything
Wondering if you ever could be loved
And if they truly saw your heart
They'd see too much
Thank you my friends, this is good.
and this will help
) .... See , here was his point , and it goes along the lines of "Be Still .... KNOW that I , Am God" . almost 80% of what goes on today in my head , I will probably not even remember tomorrow , even if I tried to ... So , why wait till tomorrow ? .... I can start my day over at any time ... I can make this very moment my "tomorrow" , all I have to do is , Be Still and Let Him do His Work .