Stepping Stone 5
Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2012 6:16 pmThis is a doozy, as I read everything that can fall under the heading of "Identifying the Problem" of that which is "Blame." I know I still have some "stuff" to work on, as far as Stepping Stone 4, but for now I will continue on and tackle that which I can.
Revenge: tried that in a way, in order that others' should be held accountable. God sent me a harsh lesson in humility and I realized it wasn't my fight to fight. He really can put things in sharp perspective.
Fear: I fear the loss of my two remaining cats, my mum, and my husband - although I will see them again in Heaven. I know that I *shouldn't* fear their loss, but it's the selfish part of me.
Mistrust: I distrust humans until I know them, because each come with their own agenda, whether for good or ill.
Anger: I don't get as angry as I used to. I had lots of reasons to be angry in the past, usually over how I was mistreated, falsely accused, etc. I have removed myself from most people/things that would anger me. I now, normally, say a prayer or just remember to breathe (and pray harder.)
Grief: going through that currently, actually, at the loss of my 7 month-old-kitten. It happened within the last couple weeks and I know the grief will fade...and I know he is with God, but still, I am selfish because I want him to be with me, healthy and happy.
Hatred: It was right there with anger. Now I try to be of the vein of "disliking" but praying for.
I did a quick-read of all the different emotions with further information...I look forward to reading and learning more.
Revenge: tried that in a way, in order that others' should be held accountable. God sent me a harsh lesson in humility and I realized it wasn't my fight to fight. He really can put things in sharp perspective.
Fear: I fear the loss of my two remaining cats, my mum, and my husband - although I will see them again in Heaven. I know that I *shouldn't* fear their loss, but it's the selfish part of me.
Mistrust: I distrust humans until I know them, because each come with their own agenda, whether for good or ill.
Anger: I don't get as angry as I used to. I had lots of reasons to be angry in the past, usually over how I was mistreated, falsely accused, etc. I have removed myself from most people/things that would anger me. I now, normally, say a prayer or just remember to breathe (and pray harder.)
Grief: going through that currently, actually, at the loss of my 7 month-old-kitten. It happened within the last couple weeks and I know the grief will fade...and I know he is with God, but still, I am selfish because I want him to be with me, healthy and happy.
Hatred: It was right there with anger. Now I try to be of the vein of "disliking" but praying for.
I did a quick-read of all the different emotions with further information...I look forward to reading and learning more.
How cool is that! That we have a God who won't just leave us where we are but is working diligently to repair our spirits. 