Day 2 - Stepping Stone 2
Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2012 11:37 pmHow appropriate that it is about the Garden of the Mind and uses parables of garden of the earth.
Both of mine need serious work.
Last year we had a "dead pool" filled-in (too many problems to list) and slowly I am reclaiming the back yard/garden. There is a large hillside, well, large to me...and there are many weeds that need removing. I have had a tentative idea for the flat(er) areas of the backyard, to include stepping stones/a walk-way...a path that meanders throughout the eventual "English" garden, with spots to stop and meditate.
Everything has been pretty much put on hold, indefinitely.
This brings me to the body/mind section of the etheral garden. My body is broken and although I have a physician who is a Godly man, he finds that every avenue we've taken to this point has received a resounding "Not this way" from God. God has granted me patience with this doctor and all the steps we've had to go through, and I've handed-over my body and said "fix it," but even the doctor is...well...we have one option left and that's of last-resort. I will have to go through my Vet Admin Doc to refer me, as private insurance will undoubtedly run out. That, is essentially the easier part of Stepping Stone 2. I may just have to "suck it up" and press on as one of God's good little soldiers who lives in pain, but gets the job done all the same...ideally without whining about it.
The "mind" section is a much messier situation. I went into the Air Force as a whole person, but I came out quite broken. I know that God gives knowledge to doctors and doctors are to use their knowledge to help us. Sometimes they help, sometimes they hurt. The one I have right now is trying to help the best she can. I know medications are only tools, but I must use action....pull weeds, tend my garden, to keep them working.
I'm going to aim to keep a log of activities as suggested in "Renewing Your Mind" but I know that I must show patience with myself and with God. I did not get into this situation/condition over-night and I know it cannot or might not be fixed over-night. God has said to me by actions in the past, "No" or "Not now" and I have to learn to accept that. I've heard of a book called "Just let it go..." and will have to check into it, as I've never been one who has easily gotten over anything and my patience for many things is very short. All things that I must work on, as I "weed my garden" and tend to new growth.
Both of mine need serious work.
Last year we had a "dead pool" filled-in (too many problems to list) and slowly I am reclaiming the back yard/garden. There is a large hillside, well, large to me...and there are many weeds that need removing. I have had a tentative idea for the flat(er) areas of the backyard, to include stepping stones/a walk-way...a path that meanders throughout the eventual "English" garden, with spots to stop and meditate.
Everything has been pretty much put on hold, indefinitely.
This brings me to the body/mind section of the etheral garden. My body is broken and although I have a physician who is a Godly man, he finds that every avenue we've taken to this point has received a resounding "Not this way" from God. God has granted me patience with this doctor and all the steps we've had to go through, and I've handed-over my body and said "fix it," but even the doctor is...well...we have one option left and that's of last-resort. I will have to go through my Vet Admin Doc to refer me, as private insurance will undoubtedly run out. That, is essentially the easier part of Stepping Stone 2. I may just have to "suck it up" and press on as one of God's good little soldiers who lives in pain, but gets the job done all the same...ideally without whining about it.
The "mind" section is a much messier situation. I went into the Air Force as a whole person, but I came out quite broken. I know that God gives knowledge to doctors and doctors are to use their knowledge to help us. Sometimes they help, sometimes they hurt. The one I have right now is trying to help the best she can. I know medications are only tools, but I must use action....pull weeds, tend my garden, to keep them working.
I'm going to aim to keep a log of activities as suggested in "Renewing Your Mind" but I know that I must show patience with myself and with God. I did not get into this situation/condition over-night and I know it cannot or might not be fixed over-night. God has said to me by actions in the past, "No" or "Not now" and I have to learn to accept that. I've heard of a book called "Just let it go..." and will have to check into it, as I've never been one who has easily gotten over anything and my patience for many things is very short. All things that I must work on, as I "weed my garden" and tend to new growth.
