journal day 2
Posted: Tue Dec 06, 2011 10:54 am
Im lost and alone it is my own doing, i caused more pain and suffering to my wife more than myself which is tearing me up inside. i know these 14 days is never going to be enough to heal the pain and everyone believes we should split apart but i made a decision to marry her and i want to keep that promise. she is my sole reason for living i would not have a place to live if it were not for her, food and a sense of well bieng and i have ignored it for so long that i felt the need to cheat on her. i was so ignorant toward her, and hurt her so much that i fear she will no longer be the same wonderful person she is. i want to make life better for us and the world around us. Im going to keep on this program, I can no longer live my life the way i have been and im taking full responsibility for my actions. i don't want this situation to kill both of us.