stepping back into the fold
Posted: Wed Oct 12, 2011 11:38 amits been a couple months since i have been on the site here and im fortunate to be back. i made a series of very selfish decisions that were resulted in harm to myself and those that love me. i was new in my faith and making great strides but the first temptation i was faced with i failed miserably. i have no doubt that the enemy saw that i was breaking free from his grasp and used my weaknesses to his advantage. satan is a sneaky devious foe. my wife and i were seperated due to my drinking problem and i had become very very lonely as time passed even though i attended church bible studies and even worked with the pastor and another man from the church individually the knowledge i gained availed me nothing. an old friend contacted me on facebook after i made a post on my 5th wedding anniversary. i was despondent and very depressed and she suggested that we go out and do something together. now being married and trying to reconcile with my wife i should have known better than go out with another woman. i had no intention for the things that took place to happen. in my mind i thought i would get a womans persepective on the situation. i dont need to go into detail for you all to figure out what really took place, and to make things worse i had no idea that she was involved with drugs. all the sacrifice of time and energy by my family and newfound friends in the church went right out the window at the first opportunity i had. things quickly spiraled out of control and a few weeks later i found myself in intensive care after making an attempt to take my own life. fortunately for me god did not turn his back on me. its a miracle in its self that i am sitting here typing this post. i was in a coma and the doctors had given me a 5 percent chance of waking up and they told my family if i did wake i would have massive brain trauma and would be in a vegetative state for the rest of my life. the way events were told to me the pastor of my church had come to the hospital and performed my last rites minutes before i was taken off life support. what took place shocked everyone. shortly after i was taken off the respirator i awoke and was talking. god once again took mercy on me and restored me for a purpose. i believe i have been given a second chance so i can share my experience with others as testimony to the grace and power of my lord and savior jesus christ. i thought god had turned his back on me and ignored my prayers when in fact he had been with me the entire time. i have no doubt now that im a very blessed in many many ways. god bless all of you and thank you for the time you have spent with me when i was posting each day. i realize that it was not god that turned his back on me but i who turned from him. the amazing thing is that he is a forgiving god and no matter what the door is always open if i so choose to walk through it.
Welcome back!
