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I'm a 25 year old mother of five children one of whom is autistic I'm thankful for all the blessings God has given me everyday.I have struggled with having that committed relationship with God I once had.I have done so many deliberate sins when He was showing me the way.I have lied, cheated, stole, and been unloving and hurt people intentionally in my past.I know I'm forgiven but I do feel so regretful of my sins sometimes I feel like God is mad at all I've done.I pray daily that He restores my relationship with Jesus I once had I want that great feeling I once had.I want to continue to lead my children to being great servants of Him.I hope and pray that. Oasist will give me that extra pushand encouragment I need to restoring my relationship with my Savior because I do not want to go back to my old life I've given up so many times before but feel like this time will be great I will be the Christian and servant I once was but even grander I know God has called me for a purpose and I need to let go of the past.He has restored my relationship with my fiancée and mother and father friends and enemies He has provided so much blessings in my family and I'm thankful for that.

Hi Leslie It's nice to meet you.

Many struggle with receiving the grace that is offered. This path is heavy on helping you do just that.

You'll get it. Just keep seeking Him.

Grace is free we just have to receive it. Easier said than done. I know. But once you trust Him with all your mistakes your relationship will be restored. See your holding onto guilt has come between the two of you. Remove the guilt and you'll find that sweet relationship that your soul is longing for. The one between you and God.

His grace is sufficient for you. God loves you and so do I.

Praying for His will in your life.

Hi Leslie,

Wow God bless you! 5 children

I think it very normal to feel regret for our sins. Thank God for that, for without the initial conviction we feel, we wouldnt realise we needed to turn from that. After going to God and repenting and doing our best to make it right, I tend to fall into that state of regret even though I know God has taken that sin and nailed it to the cross. Well i found that the reason that I do that is because of another sin, called pride. Me wanting to fix it and me wanting to punish myself for it. As if His forgiveness, being that He is the Almighty God, isnt enough for this "creation" of His. We be some silly "creations" sometimes.

I had to pull that root if you do some searching and find some resemblance to this root, pull it. And replace with the seed of true forgiveness from the Almighty Himself and let that one grow in its place.

God bless you and your lil ones.

♥Jill