Zemirahs journal - day 7
Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2011 10:39 pm
I read this a few days ago, but running a bit late with the journaling side of things. What was amazing though with the reading for this day is that when I read it I'd been thinking of a question that was heavily on my heart; and ... as I read the days reading the question was addressed! Could only be God's timing and provision of course What I'd been wondering about was why; when things had been going well that day and I wasn't aware of any negative thinking or patterns at the time, could I suddenly crash and start aching inside. I wasn't aware of any particular trigger and yet there it was! Then in the study I read about "suppressed thoughts" and how I've allowed something to enter my mind which even though I may not have been conciously aware of, my spirit was reacting to. Wow, an answer!
I know that my head is filled with all kinds of lies that shouldn't be there; all kinds of patterns ... and I understand the need to eject them. Also understand the need to replace the lie with the truth; actually a lot of this sounds a bit like cognitive based therapy and what happens there only with that it's only addressing what goes into the mind and not what goes deeper than that; and looks at mans evidence and truth instead of God's truth which we know makes all the difference. This is also where I get stuck though because "I've tried this" and while it had some success ... and is making some impact; I can't seem to eject the deeper truths which colour everything else. I also know that by thinking I've tried and failed this; it means there's now doubt there which makes it something to stumble over as well; and ..... the image of the good angel and evil spirit sitting on my shoulder and flicking them off isn't an image that works for me So now I'm stuck on day 6 and day 7; but definitely not wanting to give up! I want these lies ejected and to live the abundant life God promised and to live it freely in Him; and not just "get through the day tripping over one lie after another"
I know that my head is filled with all kinds of lies that shouldn't be there; all kinds of patterns ... and I understand the need to eject them. Also understand the need to replace the lie with the truth; actually a lot of this sounds a bit like cognitive based therapy and what happens there only with that it's only addressing what goes into the mind and not what goes deeper than that; and looks at mans evidence and truth instead of God's truth which we know makes all the difference. This is also where I get stuck though because "I've tried this" and while it had some success ... and is making some impact; I can't seem to eject the deeper truths which colour everything else. I also know that by thinking I've tried and failed this; it means there's now doubt there which makes it something to stumble over as well; and ..... the image of the good angel and evil spirit sitting on my shoulder and flicking them off isn't an image that works for me So now I'm stuck on day 6 and day 7; but definitely not wanting to give up! I want these lies ejected and to live the abundant life God promised and to live it freely in Him; and not just "get through the day tripping over one lie after another"