Day 14 - The Path
Posted: Tue Sep 28, 2010 5:02 pm
I haven't done the lesson for today. I have no excuse. I just haven't done it. My Psychiatrist wants to put me in the hospital but doesn't want to force me. She is evaluating me again at 8 am in the morning. The hospital will be a last resort. So if I disappear for a while it may be that I am in the hospital and do not have access to a computer. My addictions, depression, and anxiety are overwhelming me right now and it seems that the harder I pray and try to find a way to be free I just sink lower....like I'm in quicksand. You probably will not be hearing from me alot in the chat rooms unless it is in a pm. I do not want to offend anyone or bring anyone down. But, I will try to be present and at the very least listen. At least I am safe when I am in here with all of you. Out here I am very I very impulsive and very scared of myself. Please keep me in your prayers and I beg for your patience with me. Thank you......