step 4 -The Path
Posted: Wed Sep 22, 2010 10:44 pm
Another day on my path. This one is about forgiveness....of others and of myself. I do believe in forgiving others no matter what. It is pointless to hold on to anger and resentment against another person. I do have trouble forgiving myself. And today I learned that feelings of guilt are really just self pity. Oh geez....I hate being pitiful! The verse says our sins are separated from us as far as the east is from the west. I have to remember that.
Ok.....this phrase is giving me trouble....LET GO(of the problem) and LET GOD (remove it). I am having so much trouble letting go of the problem(the other man) because for so long I did not want God to remove it! And how terrible is that!! I HAVE asked God to remove it and it is working, but the pain of the loss of it is killing me. And I hate that too. There is a sad empty space left behind...my heart hurts. I do my best to fill that empty space with Godly things...prayer, music, positive thoughts and scripture. Also....fill it with love for my husband. It is still there I know. Please pray the sadness will not win I will feel Joy in the LOrd!
Ok.....this phrase is giving me trouble....LET GO(of the problem) and LET GOD (remove it). I am having so much trouble letting go of the problem(the other man) because for so long I did not want God to remove it! And how terrible is that!! I HAVE asked God to remove it and it is working, but the pain of the loss of it is killing me. And I hate that too. There is a sad empty space left behind...my heart hurts. I do my best to fill that empty space with Godly things...prayer, music, positive thoughts and scripture. Also....fill it with love for my husband. It is still there I know. Please pray the sadness will not win I will feel Joy in the LOrd!