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Oh geez. I really struggled with sadness today....and regret. I am trying to fill the empty places with Gody things. Day 2 really did help in this process. It talks of my mind as a garden and I have to tend it. It is soooooo full of weeds!! I have let so much sin in my life and I had it all JUSTIFIED!!! I was treated unloved by my husband so I went out and found the fun and "love " I was missing. I was watering all the weeds in my garden. I need to fertilize my GARDEN with truth.....not lies. Also.....SATAN planted the seed...and I tended it well. It grew until it was...I was so out of control. I want it to all end. It is the hurt of letting something I loved go (even tho it is so wrong) that is killing me. I feel that is my punishment for doing this.

I am going to do my best to change my thoughts, attitude, lifestyle....with God's help...and grow a righteous garden. It hurts to see how easy it was for me to fall so far away Please pray for me.....this journey is hard.

sbennett, the enemy knows our weaknesses and he will use them against us...the fact that you were having some issues in your marriage opened the door for the enemy to begin planting weeds in your mind..then the when you fed into the weeds...they began to grow and overtake your mind and take you far away from the Lord...now that you are recognizing the weeds the enemy has planted...you can begin pulling them out one by one...if you are willing to fight for your relationship with the Lord...then you will find the healing and strength...because the Lord will be by your side the entire way. Keep pushing through.

luv ya